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So the concert kicked major ass, even though Andrew was a jerk that didn't go. Jordan went instead, even though he isn't emo at all. i had a wonderful time. it ROCKED. i love Chiodos! you all need to look them up if you like screamo music! omg! they are better known as the chiodos bros. lol. Neways, so, saturday i went to my dads house and then me Amanda, Anthony, Janet, Liz, and Joses went to the Carnival, and we ran into Wick (Chad) who is a really cool emo/ska kid. Kim was spose to go but she went stupid and decided to go out with a girl named Jenny. shes a cool kid. but its just an awkward situation cus i want kim. Not to be like, self whatever but i believe that kim feels more comfertable with me, and feels my love. i dont think that she wants to nor, should leave me. I mean, she says that with jenny "its not there" which means, its not going to work, because, if its not there, its not going to be there. and its there with me, and no matter what happens shes always going to come to me, she can't let me go and i dont want her to. shes thinking about breaking up with Jenny. i dont mean to be rude but it would be better for all of us if she did. that way jenny can move on before this relationship is prolonged, and kim can be comfertable again, and i can have the one i love. i love her more than anyone can love her. ive never loved like this.
so anyways, i found out at the carnival that kim was dating this Jenny. i was standing with Janet and Wick. i just walked to the road and cried. like really bad. and we had just gotten of the Ferris wheel. and Anthony Amanda, Liz and Joses were still on it. after a min, Wick and Janet ran to me and threw there arms around me. that made me feel loved. in the background i hear the others, "RACHEL whats wrong?" etc. etc.
i told Janet and Wick. Then the others got off the wheel and ran to me, all hugged me. telling me they love me. everything that is real. i was with real friends that night. thats why it mattered. thats why i was ok.
i love you guys...all of you who cared. Janet, Liz, Joses, Anthony, Amanda, Jordan, Amber, Rachelle (Shelly W.) yes i haven't forgotten you shelly.
and yes, i still love you Kim. i love you more than the sun that rises.
"Lets let the memories drift away... Im taking down these pictures of you on my wall... These Scars still bleed and im letting them drip on our past... I'm torn, between decision and a dead reckoning.. If im not fair, Then tell me, why do you still Care? " ~Chiodos.
so anyways, i found out at the carnival that kim was dating this Jenny. i was standing with Janet and Wick. i just walked to the road and cried. like really bad. and we had just gotten of the Ferris wheel. and Anthony Amanda, Liz and Joses were still on it. after a min, Wick and Janet ran to me and threw there arms around me. that made me feel loved. in the background i hear the others, "RACHEL whats wrong?" etc. etc.
i told Janet and Wick. Then the others got off the wheel and ran to me, all hugged me. telling me they love me. everything that is real. i was with real friends that night. thats why it mattered. thats why i was ok.
i love you guys...all of you who cared. Janet, Liz, Joses, Anthony, Amanda, Jordan, Amber, Rachelle (Shelly W.) yes i haven't forgotten you shelly.
and yes, i still love you Kim. i love you more than the sun that rises.
"Lets let the memories drift away... Im taking down these pictures of you on my wall... These Scars still bleed and im letting them drip on our past... I'm torn, between decision and a dead reckoning.. If im not fair, Then tell me, why do you still Care? " ~Chiodos.