hey......:/
so yeah, i went to patys house wednesday nite. we ended up driving around plainwell to go get Josh and then got home. it wasn't anything special but i just love hangin out with all them cool peeps. i had to get up early for the Canada trip. it was ok. i hung out with Katie J and Ross G the whole time. yet the play itself was the most awesome thing in the entire world! lol. it was cool. well when we left on the bus idk what hit me but i got really fuckin depressed. i cut again. on the bus. well, today at school was retarted. i hated it. like, nothing totally in particular happened i guess. i was just upset. but yeah. after 5th hour, we had seminar, and i was looking for Ali. i ran into Bob and asked him where she was. hes like, "shes upstairs hugging and being all over Texas (his name is Matt but hes from Texas) and some other guys. thats why im downhere." i walked off crying. and Bob ran after me. he grabbed my arm and noticed my wrist...he wasn't happy...needless to say. he was spose to call me tonite but i haven't heard from him. i really wanted to talk to him too. :(. well, after practice i took jordan home. when we got to his house i tried to tell him about my wrists...and that i began cutting again. but he was way too infatuated with who was at his house. so i just gave up and said w/e goodbye. then i cryed on the way home. WHY THE FUCK DO I CRY SO DAMNED MUCH??? UGH. well neways, ima get going. i think im going to go see Shelly, shes at the football game, i mite go over there at halftime, idk. well, ttyl. Hey Kelsey!?! I LOVE YOU!. thanks for commenting on my journals all the time, it makes me feel better. everyone else knows that but i guess it doesn't matter cus they dont comment anymore at all...*cries*. Kelsey youre so cool, im glad youre my friend, it sucks that you couldnt go to canada!?!. well, im going to go fer real now. byes!
~Rachel
~Rachel