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i've been thinking about you a lot lately. not at all sexually, but just in general.
it sucks that you always had control. you decided how we were together and how we weren't. last time i saw you, i decided because i was having a very hard time. you haven't called me since.
before that, i really only heard from you when you wanted something from me. you even told me straight out once that i was your second choice.
when did i become so easy for you to flatten?
i want to get in touch now, not because i have any intimate interest in you (though it feels like you'll think i do), but because you were a big part of my life for so long and i still care. we were supposed to always care. i'm sure you do in some sense, but it bothers me that you can't be bothered to act on it.
there was a time when you knew me better than anyone and i knew you better than anyone. i don't want that anymore, but it would be nice if we knew each other at all.
it sucks that you always had control. you decided how we were together and how we weren't. last time i saw you, i decided because i was having a very hard time. you haven't called me since.
before that, i really only heard from you when you wanted something from me. you even told me straight out once that i was your second choice.
when did i become so easy for you to flatten?
i want to get in touch now, not because i have any intimate interest in you (though it feels like you'll think i do), but because you were a big part of my life for so long and i still care. we were supposed to always care. i'm sure you do in some sense, but it bothers me that you can't be bothered to act on it.
there was a time when you knew me better than anyone and i knew you better than anyone. i don't want that anymore, but it would be nice if we knew each other at all.