Jan 17, 2011 18:42
A moment of clarity again! I've realized something; somewhat of a turning point if you will. I took one good look around me and analyzed the people in my life. Some of which are better influences than others. The ones I thought as a better influence seemed to drift away the shadier of a person I became. I did not want this and in exchange I was surrounded by some of the worst disreputable individuals imaginable. This too I did not want. I have finally learned what it means to truly practice self control. Now I have the better people back, the crappier ones away. The exact way I want it. I still want to be a true road dog and tour the country with friends making music but I also want to be a social worker. I want to help fucked up kids just like how I used to be a fucked up kid. I'm at the point that I feel strong enough to help others because I have helped myself. I know that these two goals are achievable. I have faith in myself. Touring musician social worker! I feel like such an adult now, hahahaha. A friend of mine recently said something comical and appropriate for this needed change "You can only be a teenage junky for so long." He nailed it damn well that's for sure. With so much to die for Why would I want to go down that way?
VIVA LA VIDA!