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Today I'm in a comedy/ black tea mood.
California fields and a Mate Vana/Caramel Rooibos blend.
I don't really feel happy, but I don't feel sad.
I'm acting happy though.
Yesterday I finally finished the poem inspired by a bisexual friend.
Idk if it was good or not I just didn't care that much...as long as I finished it after like ten months lol.
I'm hungry. Abnormally hungry.
Watching pregnant people in Baby Mama eating everything doesn't help much...
An issue that's been bugging me is...well people talking to me and they seem so cool...and then all of the sudden they're turning the subject around to wanting to date me or something or wanting something more than friendship. What the fuck!? We were just having this nice conversation, we have a lot in common...why are you ruining it by turning the conversation into dating me and wanting me to be their girlfriend in the future...
I either get a bipolar friend who ditches me and hurts me or someone who either wants to be with me or fuck and ruin everything.
I seriously like..have no friends :/
Maybe I'm seeing someone, maybe the love of my life committed suicide, maybe I got out of a bad relationship and I just don't want to see nor touch anyone else.
I do have animals, and I do have my writing and books. So I guess I won;t ever be completely lonely. Still nice to have someone I have something in common with to talk to.
Baby Mama keeps making me laugh and distracting me from typing so yeah...
xRayn
California fields and a Mate Vana/Caramel Rooibos blend.
I don't really feel happy, but I don't feel sad.
I'm acting happy though.
Yesterday I finally finished the poem inspired by a bisexual friend.
Idk if it was good or not I just didn't care that much...as long as I finished it after like ten months lol.
I'm hungry. Abnormally hungry.
Watching pregnant people in Baby Mama eating everything doesn't help much...
An issue that's been bugging me is...well people talking to me and they seem so cool...and then all of the sudden they're turning the subject around to wanting to date me or something or wanting something more than friendship. What the fuck!? We were just having this nice conversation, we have a lot in common...why are you ruining it by turning the conversation into dating me and wanting me to be their girlfriend in the future...
I either get a bipolar friend who ditches me and hurts me or someone who either wants to be with me or fuck and ruin everything.
I seriously like..have no friends :/
Maybe I'm seeing someone, maybe the love of my life committed suicide, maybe I got out of a bad relationship and I just don't want to see nor touch anyone else.
I do have animals, and I do have my writing and books. So I guess I won;t ever be completely lonely. Still nice to have someone I have something in common with to talk to.
Baby Mama keeps making me laugh and distracting me from typing so yeah...
xRayn