okay, so, learn to be single. find out who i am.

[raymondkitten]

S The problem is, I keep jumping immediately into trying to meet women again. Worse, I succeed. At least I put on my profile that I'm looking to only make friends, because I don't get annoyed with a woman for a few months. I think that's one reason I did so well with Becky. She was a tough nut, we didn't have sex for 9 months, and I was always on the hunt. I don't think she's that attractive anymore, but I NEED to have high standards again like I used to. I think I need to make a list of what I want, and not just dealbreakers. I made the dealbreakers list so I didn't exclude a large portion of the population. My problem is that i need someone a lot more specific to me to stay attracted to and maybe feel love again. So far, most of the best matches for me have been younger than me by about 5 years. I'm okay with that, age isn't a huge thing. Most of them have been bisexual, which is a huge plus for me. And the absolute must have for me is polyamory. I want someone fit; not necessarily athletic or thin, but someone who goes to the gym and can run a mile. I want to be with someone who wears as much black as I do, and looks good in tight clothing. I want someone with a C-cup or less, I'm tired of big tits. They're not very fun. Having some junk in the trunk is a bonus, but I don't want it to be giant from sitting down all day. I'm not looking for a couple of tens to fall into my lap, i'd be happy with a seven or eight, haha. I want someone who looks racy while covered head to to in bustles and petticoats with a lacy parasol. I want her to wear glasses, even if she has perfect vision. I want her to have tasteful tattoos hidden by clothes. I want her to be pierced or not afraid of getting pierced. I want her to have pale skin, dark hair and blue eyes. I wouldn't mind a blonde though... I want her to not be afraid of riding on a motorcycle, be anti-drug use but anti-drug law too. I want so much, but mathematically there's gotta be a couple or a few out there. I don't want a 100% match, I want like 75 to 80. Not a techie, but college educated and knows how to use a computer and looks stuff up on the internet. She's gotta be a musician, a poet, trying to better herself and always constantly learning.

Well, that's enough emo whining for now. Just need to leave a note to future self not to settle for overweight jealous girls with no desire to learn or go to the gym and become a better person. DON'T SETTLE RAYMOND GODDAMNIT DON'T DO IT