Oct 05, 2006 16:22
Today I read, "The only time you waste is the time you think you are alone."
It's a quote from The Five People You Meet in Heaven by Mitch Albom. I have read this line before but it wasn't until today that I understood it and felt what it meant. I didnt finsih the book because my Aunt wanted it back so I bought it again yesterday to read it over again and finish it. The reason I didn't finish it and bought it again was because I needed to read that line again. If I'd read the whole book I would ahve never opened it again. Funny how life works out? Nothing is a coinicidence, everything is inter-connected.
I've been so damn lonely and feeling more alone than ever when this is the first time I actually have someone there all the time. I've been wasting time. The lonliness even makes me thinks that things said to me are only being said to make me happy. I'm not feeling meaning or love behind the words. I have to stop.
I've been having anxiety in the mornings but after I read that line I don't think it is going to be coming back. I need to chill out and remember how to myself - laid-back and random. I've been worrying about everything and it's about time I stopped. Worrying is such a waste of time. I don't even have anything to worry about really. I'm just putting thoughts in my head.