the way it is meant to be is the way it is...

[rayleah]

I was reminded today how long it has been since this has been updated. Its not like I dont have much to say, cuz I do and lots of thing have changed.

This summer was incredible. I met someone-- scratch that. I finally hung-out with a good friend who was always more then a friend I just pretended I didnt feel that way I guess. Depite what you might think you know about me or what I have heard that you say, I have only had one real boyfriend in my not so past. I am not the type of girl who dates people or sleeps with people. If thats what you think then you don't know me as well as you might have thought you did. I am a very open person so maybe you've mistaken some joking conversations with assuming. Its okay though...I forgive you.

This guys is amazing...more then I ever imagined he could be. The loving-to-be-single-and-on-her-own Rachel has grown into, willing I might add, a Rachel who doesn't even want to know what she would do without him, not because he's a need...but because its teh last thing in the world she ever wants.

Its crazy. I would have never thought. Then again I was ignorant to the feeling.