Crumbling Walls: One stone at a time
It's beginning to slowly dawn on me the direction I want to take my life and my career. I just need to refine it more, I think. However, it's a start because before it was all confusion and uncertainty. I sort of have a goal in mind as to where I want to take things. I am beginning to see possibilities whereas before I saw none. I am allowing myself to become more ambitions, which was something I lacked before. To be honest I was quite complacent. I realized that I want more out of my life than what I have previously thought.
Sometimes I feel like everything is happening backwards instead of forwards. Where as I thought I knew what I wanted out of my life turned out to be not necessarily true. Once I was anti-social... I find myself surrounded by friends and busy almost every weekend. Before I was not interested in boys as much... and now I am... things feel like they're happening backwards instead of forwards... it's odd. I can't explain it properly. It's like things that should have happened when I was younger are only beginning to make their appearance now. lol! Perhaps the reason being is that I'm learning to let go... I'm learning to be receptive to others... I'm learning how to bring my walls down which keeps everyone at bay. I'm learning... and growing... and slowly facing and overcoming my fears... or demons, whichever term you prefer to use. lol! It's allowed me to appreciate more and be grateful for what I have than when I was hiding behind my metaphysical fortified stone tower.
Sometimes I feel like everything is happening backwards instead of forwards. Where as I thought I knew what I wanted out of my life turned out to be not necessarily true. Once I was anti-social... I find myself surrounded by friends and busy almost every weekend. Before I was not interested in boys as much... and now I am... things feel like they're happening backwards instead of forwards... it's odd. I can't explain it properly. It's like things that should have happened when I was younger are only beginning to make their appearance now. lol! Perhaps the reason being is that I'm learning to let go... I'm learning to be receptive to others... I'm learning how to bring my walls down which keeps everyone at bay. I'm learning... and growing... and slowly facing and overcoming my fears... or demons, whichever term you prefer to use. lol! It's allowed me to appreciate more and be grateful for what I have than when I was hiding behind my metaphysical fortified stone tower.