Well would you look at that.
Why would you name a CD burning program Nero? Oh wait, I get it. It's funny when you think about it. Nero burned things, namely the city of Rome and Christian people. Y'know, it's funny that Spacehog are the band that really made me appreciate music as art. It's a shame that so many writers we looked at in my Aesthetics class didn't talk about music as art just because they couldn't appreciate it like they could traditional art. I'm the reverse really. While if I try, I can hint at the reasons I do or do not like a piece, or why it IS a piece of art (and in both these cases my ability to speak in the language of bullshit helps), I find it much easier to find art in the intricate balance of well crafted music with beautiful poetry found in a good song. It's all in what a piece of art is able to suggest to its audience, on an individual level of course, that makes it good. The institutionalization of art is bullshit, both in regards to its interpretation and in its labeling as art.
I think I'm going to start drinking coffee a lot more often. It's disgusting and I hate it, but it gives me so much focus. I think today, just a few minutes ago, was the first time I've ever actually purchased coffee. I can already feel my insides rotting. But that's actually most likely due to other elements altogether. Years ago, when I was much more innocent, I believed that chemical dependencies on any level were a sign of weakness. That ranges from severe drug addiction right down to having a drink more than say, once a year. I still believe that, which of course forces me to admit that I am a rather weak person, but I knew that. I think that might be a theme in many Blur songs actually. So I'm hoping to take up coffee as an addiction, and just maybe it will create and immediately fill the void of any other chemical addiction I've developed. I'm going to try and make the holidays serve as a detox for me. I'll see how long I can go without pornography, smoking, and maybe drinking. The only time I imagine myself drinking is at new years, wherever it is I end up. And I believe that I'd only be doing it as some sort of potential excuse for whatever stupid things I sub-consciously want to do. Who wants to be a sober sally with me on New Years? Ah? Any takers? Good. It will also keep me from smoking. I don't know who knows it, but I took up smoking a few months ago. It was primarily for humours sake, and I stand by my choice to do so. I was also interested to see if I could shake the habit when I wanted to. I already tried once, but I caved in, I think due to boredom. If ever I do smoke again, i plan on becoming much more hostile so that I can put into action those humourous offshoots of smoking, those being exhaling into someone's face and putting a cigarette out on my hand. I can honestly say that the ability to do that, as well as smoke and look badass was well worth whatever damage I've done to my lungs.
So I've been feeling nostalgic lately. I think it started when I watched X-men2 the other day. It had been a long time, and possibly only the second or third time I'd watched it. I noticed something that I'd never really noticed whenever I'd watched either of the films int he past. They really do well to capture a lot of the play between the characters that the comics and cartoon did so well. One of the first things I noticed was the whole Cyclops-Jean Grey- Wolverine love triangle. That story consumed me as a child. For years any girl I had a crush on was to be the Jean Grey to my Wolverine. Actually thinking about that, I may have just pinpointed my subconscious desire to sabotage any of my potential relationships in order to be more like my first childhood hero. Fuck anyone who pays for psychiatric help. Do it yourself and walk it off pussies. Anyway, you may think it obvious, but I never really noticed how well that triangle was portrayed in the films. In the first one it's much more playful, so you don't really notice. But in the second one it's a lot more serious, and it shows this sort of unspoken and seemingly inescapable love that the two men have for jean, and her for the both of them. I must though point out that I think James Marsden, that beautiful bastard who plays Scott Summers kinda sucks. I can't tell if it's his fault or not because it seems like he's written to be the strong and silent type. As we all know, that's not who Cyclops should be. He is the leader of the X-men, he's meant to be at the front making the majority of the witty remarks. It's too clear that they put far too much focus on Wolverine. I really didn't like how he got in the last word in the last scene of the movie, when they're talking to the president and he says "We'll be watching you." Shoulda been Cyclops. He would have had good reason to say such a bitchy thing too, his wife had just been killed and it was indirectly the presidents fault. Sure he was on the verge of tears in the scene, but the true leader of the X-men would have sucked it up and worked out a little toughness. That brings me to another point. Right after Jean dies and the team are flying away, Scott breaks down and cries on Logans shoulder. I actually really liked that, but it was too much of a contrast between his girly crying and the rest of the movie where he had like, two lines. I like James Marsden in the role, though I would like it if he was... wider. He looks too much like a model. Both his face and body are far too small to be Cyclops. He's good in the role when he actually has a line, but the writing team did a shitty job of making him the leader of the X-men. Also, it was careless and irresponsible to not make Colossus a Russian. Though minor, his role int he movie was still very good. Making him a younger guy was good, but I think they could have made him Russian and really started to set up the story with his sister. The shot of him holding the young girl was probably identical to one from the comics of him holding his sister, but they failed to set that up, it would have been a lot more touching. A similar thing I thought they were going to work in was the Morph character. When Logan can't sleep and comes across the kid flicking around the TV channels and it looks like they are going to start up a nice little friendship, I remember in the theaters shitting a frisbee because I thought they were introducing the Morph-Wolverine relationship. The reason I that that is because that exact same set up to the friendship of the two was the exact same in the cartoon. Logan meets Morph in front of the TV and he starts turning into the people on the TV and imitating them, talking about mutant registration most likely. Wolverine starts laughing and it marks the beginning of a beautiful but tragic friendship. Instead they made him a little kid, and gave him some power where he can close his eyes and the channel changes. That sucks by itself, but the fact that it meant he wasn't Morph cheesed me off. There's some other stuff I could go into. Like how Striker's son really could have turned out to be the Shadow King character. I believe traditionally his son was Sabertooth, who's mother was Mystique or something, who was also Night Crawler's mother, as well as one of Rogue's Foster parents. That really would have over complicated things though, which was one of the problems with the comic. Nostalgia.
As I was saying, I've been feeling Nostalgic lately. So it started with the last beastly paragraph, then I went to the mall and once again saw this new line of Marvel action figures they have. They have characters who don't usually get included in toy lines, and they seem to be really good toys as well. It's the whole Marvel Legends line really. These are the reasons I want lots of money. So I started talking about this to Mike, and it lead to talk about the comics and cartoons, since then it's been on my mind a lot. I even thought about dropping out of school and devoting my life to writing comics. If I wanted to be really good I'd have to learn to draw them as well, so maybe I'll practice over the next few years, then somehow turn my university education into more of a waste than it already is by devoting myself to writing kids stories. I think that's a good idea. I really can't get more into that, since I should be studying and my coffee high is running out.
But dammit if that's gonna stop me! Last night I kept falling asleep then waking up, then forcing myself back to sleep. It was tough, but when I was asleep I would always have a new dream. So by the time I got out of bed, I'd had quite a few dreams. What was cool, was that by the end, I honestly must have had a dream involving every person that I know. It was strange. Like, everyone. Anyway. I really do need to study. My last exam tomorrow, and I seriously know nothing about the class. So off I go. Too many word.
I think I'm going to start drinking coffee a lot more often. It's disgusting and I hate it, but it gives me so much focus. I think today, just a few minutes ago, was the first time I've ever actually purchased coffee. I can already feel my insides rotting. But that's actually most likely due to other elements altogether. Years ago, when I was much more innocent, I believed that chemical dependencies on any level were a sign of weakness. That ranges from severe drug addiction right down to having a drink more than say, once a year. I still believe that, which of course forces me to admit that I am a rather weak person, but I knew that. I think that might be a theme in many Blur songs actually. So I'm hoping to take up coffee as an addiction, and just maybe it will create and immediately fill the void of any other chemical addiction I've developed. I'm going to try and make the holidays serve as a detox for me. I'll see how long I can go without pornography, smoking, and maybe drinking. The only time I imagine myself drinking is at new years, wherever it is I end up. And I believe that I'd only be doing it as some sort of potential excuse for whatever stupid things I sub-consciously want to do. Who wants to be a sober sally with me on New Years? Ah? Any takers? Good. It will also keep me from smoking. I don't know who knows it, but I took up smoking a few months ago. It was primarily for humours sake, and I stand by my choice to do so. I was also interested to see if I could shake the habit when I wanted to. I already tried once, but I caved in, I think due to boredom. If ever I do smoke again, i plan on becoming much more hostile so that I can put into action those humourous offshoots of smoking, those being exhaling into someone's face and putting a cigarette out on my hand. I can honestly say that the ability to do that, as well as smoke and look badass was well worth whatever damage I've done to my lungs.
So I've been feeling nostalgic lately. I think it started when I watched X-men2 the other day. It had been a long time, and possibly only the second or third time I'd watched it. I noticed something that I'd never really noticed whenever I'd watched either of the films int he past. They really do well to capture a lot of the play between the characters that the comics and cartoon did so well. One of the first things I noticed was the whole Cyclops-Jean Grey- Wolverine love triangle. That story consumed me as a child. For years any girl I had a crush on was to be the Jean Grey to my Wolverine. Actually thinking about that, I may have just pinpointed my subconscious desire to sabotage any of my potential relationships in order to be more like my first childhood hero. Fuck anyone who pays for psychiatric help. Do it yourself and walk it off pussies. Anyway, you may think it obvious, but I never really noticed how well that triangle was portrayed in the films. In the first one it's much more playful, so you don't really notice. But in the second one it's a lot more serious, and it shows this sort of unspoken and seemingly inescapable love that the two men have for jean, and her for the both of them. I must though point out that I think James Marsden, that beautiful bastard who plays Scott Summers kinda sucks. I can't tell if it's his fault or not because it seems like he's written to be the strong and silent type. As we all know, that's not who Cyclops should be. He is the leader of the X-men, he's meant to be at the front making the majority of the witty remarks. It's too clear that they put far too much focus on Wolverine. I really didn't like how he got in the last word in the last scene of the movie, when they're talking to the president and he says "We'll be watching you." Shoulda been Cyclops. He would have had good reason to say such a bitchy thing too, his wife had just been killed and it was indirectly the presidents fault. Sure he was on the verge of tears in the scene, but the true leader of the X-men would have sucked it up and worked out a little toughness. That brings me to another point. Right after Jean dies and the team are flying away, Scott breaks down and cries on Logans shoulder. I actually really liked that, but it was too much of a contrast between his girly crying and the rest of the movie where he had like, two lines. I like James Marsden in the role, though I would like it if he was... wider. He looks too much like a model. Both his face and body are far too small to be Cyclops. He's good in the role when he actually has a line, but the writing team did a shitty job of making him the leader of the X-men. Also, it was careless and irresponsible to not make Colossus a Russian. Though minor, his role int he movie was still very good. Making him a younger guy was good, but I think they could have made him Russian and really started to set up the story with his sister. The shot of him holding the young girl was probably identical to one from the comics of him holding his sister, but they failed to set that up, it would have been a lot more touching. A similar thing I thought they were going to work in was the Morph character. When Logan can't sleep and comes across the kid flicking around the TV channels and it looks like they are going to start up a nice little friendship, I remember in the theaters shitting a frisbee because I thought they were introducing the Morph-Wolverine relationship. The reason I that that is because that exact same set up to the friendship of the two was the exact same in the cartoon. Logan meets Morph in front of the TV and he starts turning into the people on the TV and imitating them, talking about mutant registration most likely. Wolverine starts laughing and it marks the beginning of a beautiful but tragic friendship. Instead they made him a little kid, and gave him some power where he can close his eyes and the channel changes. That sucks by itself, but the fact that it meant he wasn't Morph cheesed me off. There's some other stuff I could go into. Like how Striker's son really could have turned out to be the Shadow King character. I believe traditionally his son was Sabertooth, who's mother was Mystique or something, who was also Night Crawler's mother, as well as one of Rogue's Foster parents. That really would have over complicated things though, which was one of the problems with the comic. Nostalgia.
As I was saying, I've been feeling Nostalgic lately. So it started with the last beastly paragraph, then I went to the mall and once again saw this new line of Marvel action figures they have. They have characters who don't usually get included in toy lines, and they seem to be really good toys as well. It's the whole Marvel Legends line really. These are the reasons I want lots of money. So I started talking about this to Mike, and it lead to talk about the comics and cartoons, since then it's been on my mind a lot. I even thought about dropping out of school and devoting my life to writing comics. If I wanted to be really good I'd have to learn to draw them as well, so maybe I'll practice over the next few years, then somehow turn my university education into more of a waste than it already is by devoting myself to writing kids stories. I think that's a good idea. I really can't get more into that, since I should be studying and my coffee high is running out.
But dammit if that's gonna stop me! Last night I kept falling asleep then waking up, then forcing myself back to sleep. It was tough, but when I was asleep I would always have a new dream. So by the time I got out of bed, I'd had quite a few dreams. What was cool, was that by the end, I honestly must have had a dream involving every person that I know. It was strange. Like, everyone. Anyway. I really do need to study. My last exam tomorrow, and I seriously know nothing about the class. So off I go. Too many word.