Social interaction brings me closer to humanity. I guess that should have been obvious.
Today I felt more human. Several times I was able to not only notice, but even be upset with myself for thinking horrible thoughts. Off the top of my head I can only think of 2-3 instances where I thought about brutally murdering another human being. This may have something to do with the fact that I've started talking to the others at work. Even the one I hate, and spend most of my time dreaming up elaborate excuses for slitting his throat or jamming a pen into his temple about, I began to speak more with. I still hate him. But now it's more of a confident disgust, as there is no longer any doubt in my mind that I am better than him in every way. Granted, the son of a whore claims to have spotted a few errors on my part, but I found countless on his part. In addition, I still believe that there's a good chance I was right, and when those shipments come back wrong with his signature on them, he will be fired, and he'll go home and hang himself. And he can't handle skids worth a shit. I also spent time with both Mat and Sina, both experiences were very calming. Mat's pool is open, thus providing us with another last resort in regards to finding something to do. I need help.