Poem: Your Fault
Your Fault - By Michael Christopher Darling
I want to hang my head down,
I never want to let you go,
I never want to know,
The truth behind your words,
And of all the lies you spoke to me,
Of all the false promised that you whispered to me,
Like angels and devils,
Falling in love,
A love and hate relationship,
Why did you do the things you did?
Why did you do those things to me?
I can’t help but scream,
It hurts inside so deep,
My weeping continues to wail each and every night,
The day does not bring any happiness to me,
I am drowning in myself,
The masks we wear each and everyday,
Hide the emotions and pain,
But when I am by myself,
I can not hide,
I hurt deep inside,
Alone with the ghosts in the wind,
A never ending wake,
Inside my head,
Spinning round and round,
The blood runs freely,
Down my body,
Flooding the room around me,
Drowning within my instability,
I am lost and scared,
The blood flows coldly within my veins.
The society tells me to repress,
The society tells me to suppress,
But I am screaming,
But I am crying,
I just feeling like I am dying,
That is all my insides feel like doing everyday,
I can not pick myself up,
I gash at myself trying,
To find a new reason to continue living,
The scares tell everyone I do not care,
The blood flows coldly from my arm,
My legs and my thighs,
I will continue to hate myself,
But regardless of whatever you told me,
I will not forget the lies,
And each and every tear,
That flows from my face,
Keep in mind,
That it is your fault,
All your fault,
It is your fault,
So much your fault.
And as I am lying here bleeding,
In my own pool of blood,
I am screaming that it is your fault,
And of all the lies that you told me,
Of the fake kisses you gave me,
Have ended up destroying me,
I hate you,
I never want to feel the hurt,
This is the only way,
I am alone in the dark,
There is not coming back,
The blood flows coldly out of my body,
Flooding the floor around me,
The world dims and becomes black,
My blood is the only colour I see,
I hate you so much and it is all your fault,
But you will not realize,
Exactly what you have done to me.
I want to hang my head down,
I never want to let you go,
I never want to know,
The truth behind your words,
And of all the lies you spoke to me,
Of all the false promised that you whispered to me,
Like angels and devils,
Falling in love,
A love and hate relationship,
Why did you do the things you did?
Why did you do those things to me?
I can’t help but scream,
It hurts inside so deep,
My weeping continues to wail each and every night,
The day does not bring any happiness to me,
I am drowning in myself,
The masks we wear each and everyday,
Hide the emotions and pain,
But when I am by myself,
I can not hide,
I hurt deep inside,
Alone with the ghosts in the wind,
A never ending wake,
Inside my head,
Spinning round and round,
The blood runs freely,
Down my body,
Flooding the room around me,
Drowning within my instability,
I am lost and scared,
The blood flows coldly within my veins.
The society tells me to repress,
The society tells me to suppress,
But I am screaming,
But I am crying,
I just feeling like I am dying,
That is all my insides feel like doing everyday,
I can not pick myself up,
I gash at myself trying,
To find a new reason to continue living,
The scares tell everyone I do not care,
The blood flows coldly from my arm,
My legs and my thighs,
I will continue to hate myself,
But regardless of whatever you told me,
I will not forget the lies,
And each and every tear,
That flows from my face,
Keep in mind,
That it is your fault,
All your fault,
It is your fault,
So much your fault.
And as I am lying here bleeding,
In my own pool of blood,
I am screaming that it is your fault,
And of all the lies that you told me,
Of the fake kisses you gave me,
Have ended up destroying me,
I hate you,
I never want to feel the hurt,
This is the only way,
I am alone in the dark,
There is not coming back,
The blood flows coldly out of my body,
Flooding the floor around me,
The world dims and becomes black,
My blood is the only colour I see,
I hate you so much and it is all your fault,
But you will not realize,
Exactly what you have done to me.