running in circles.
i got in a fight w/ my best friends yesturday.
not fun.
i thought it would make things i dunno, better maybe?
i just couldnt hide what i felt ne more.
they celebrated kelsey's bday w/o telling me about it cuz they were afraid theyd hurt my feelings.
y didnt they just tell me in the begining?
no thats not rele the half of it.
it just all builds up.
i couldnt hold it in.
my mental balloon was about to explode!
ive always tried to deal with evrything and pretend it doesnt bother me. but truthfully...it does.
i took it out on meghan.
and i said almost everything ive been holding in.
i got it all out, and i spoke my mind, but i still feel rele bad.
if they were hurting my feelings, y do i feel bad for sticking up for myself?
i completely opened up to jenny.
like to the point where u could prolly see broad daylight through my stomach.
honestly i nvr wanted it to come to this.
i didnt want to risk the friendship.
and when i finally got up enough courage to make a stand, i ended up shooting it to peices.
i just dont know where to go from here.
and from this, i have learned that the words im sry mean squat.
it seams like when ever someone says it, it doesnt make a difference.
im sry doesnt mean a thing if the person who uses it continues to do it.
im not saying thats the case er ne thing.
but id rele like those words to mean somthing for once.
i love our friendship too much to let "im sry" mean nothing.
i just dont know what to do.
i could say sry, but i dunno what im sry 4.
i dunno where to go from here.
i guess il just hafta wait and see where this leads.
everything happens for a reason...god knows what this one is.
:(
im sick.
it started on monday.
i was at jen lopez's hosue.
we were watching the ring 1 (which btw is def not scary).
and i just stared to feel like shit.
and know, two days later im burning up, coughing, and ive been a vegetable since last night.
leanne came over, i hope i didnt get her sick.
i apologize in advance lol. we watched "w/o a paddle"
and i lost my voice.
for those who know me best know that i could nvr get rid of a lost voice.
the only way to "find your voice" is not to talk for a while, and y'all know that me and not talknig is just not an option lol.
in a nut shell, i feel crapy and depressed.
i hope this doesnt mean our friendships are completely lost.
and answer to _______'s question:
if this were to end...i definately could not ever forget the last 2 years.
this is rach signing off saying...
"take your life in your own hands, and what happens?
a terrible thing: no one to blame."
not fun.
i thought it would make things i dunno, better maybe?
i just couldnt hide what i felt ne more.
they celebrated kelsey's bday w/o telling me about it cuz they were afraid theyd hurt my feelings.
y didnt they just tell me in the begining?
no thats not rele the half of it.
it just all builds up.
i couldnt hold it in.
my mental balloon was about to explode!
ive always tried to deal with evrything and pretend it doesnt bother me. but truthfully...it does.
i took it out on meghan.
and i said almost everything ive been holding in.
i got it all out, and i spoke my mind, but i still feel rele bad.
if they were hurting my feelings, y do i feel bad for sticking up for myself?
i completely opened up to jenny.
like to the point where u could prolly see broad daylight through my stomach.
honestly i nvr wanted it to come to this.
i didnt want to risk the friendship.
and when i finally got up enough courage to make a stand, i ended up shooting it to peices.
i just dont know where to go from here.
and from this, i have learned that the words im sry mean squat.
it seams like when ever someone says it, it doesnt make a difference.
im sry doesnt mean a thing if the person who uses it continues to do it.
im not saying thats the case er ne thing.
but id rele like those words to mean somthing for once.
i love our friendship too much to let "im sry" mean nothing.
i just dont know what to do.
i could say sry, but i dunno what im sry 4.
i dunno where to go from here.
i guess il just hafta wait and see where this leads.
everything happens for a reason...god knows what this one is.
:(
im sick.
it started on monday.
i was at jen lopez's hosue.
we were watching the ring 1 (which btw is def not scary).
and i just stared to feel like shit.
and know, two days later im burning up, coughing, and ive been a vegetable since last night.
leanne came over, i hope i didnt get her sick.
i apologize in advance lol. we watched "w/o a paddle"
and i lost my voice.
for those who know me best know that i could nvr get rid of a lost voice.
the only way to "find your voice" is not to talk for a while, and y'all know that me and not talknig is just not an option lol.
in a nut shell, i feel crapy and depressed.
i hope this doesnt mean our friendships are completely lost.
and answer to _______'s question:
if this were to end...i definately could not ever forget the last 2 years.
this is rach signing off saying...
"take your life in your own hands, and what happens?
a terrible thing: no one to blame."