why did this happen?
I didn't make it.
And, I'm not kidding. I really wish I was.
I'll tell you guys how try-outs went anyway.
Okay, so, I tryed out bright and early this morning, but I won't find out results until 3. I will definetly tell you guys.
So, I'll just tell yall about how the tryouts went.
Okay, let me just start out by saying this: I hope I never hear the song, "Take It Easy" by Travis Tritt ever again. Do you know how many times i've heard it in the past 3 months? I don't even know! Too many, that's how many.
Anway. So, I woke up at 7 this morning. I ate Cheerios. I brushed my teeth. Put on some mascara. Put on blue jeans, the white t-shirt, socks, and of course, my boots! I decided to put my hair half-up. I spun around, did some stuff to see if that was a sufficient hairstyle. It was.
I then took off all my jewelry. That was sad. I feel weird without it. I didn't even get to wear my signature hoop earrings. But that's okay. I think i'd rather go without earrings and have normal earlobes than wear them and risk having messed up earlobes.
I got to school at around 7:45. There were a lot of people there. I practiced my horrible dips with three guys. Grant, at around 8. They were getting better. Then with Jordan a little bit after 8. This lady was telling me how to do them which I hate because she's never done it. Let me see you do it and keep your foot in the right place! I was just glad I got to see Jordan. He's like my best friend, and a secret crush! Whoo.
Then, I practiced the whole dance with my partner litterally right before we went out. My dips were getting better.
Then, at around 8:05, it was my turn. I was FREAKED! Everyone thought I was going to pass out because I kept taking in tons of really deep breaths.
So, Jeff and I got out to where we were trying out. Jeff is the captain, so I knew he could make me look pretty good! We go out there, and I'm like, "Hi, I'm Raychel." and I smiled. I noticed how weird the judges were immediately.
The one and only guy looked sorta pervy. I did this one dip and I gave him this look and sorta flirted with him, and he raised his eyebrows and smiled. I was like "Ew!"
The woman in the middle was older than the other two judges. She seemed pretty mean, too. I don't think I ever saw her smile. She just sat there with a blank face the whole time. It was sorta scary.
Then, the last woman was really young and really pretty. According to all of the third years, she has been judging "since forever." She smiled like once, but hey, it was nice!
Now, onto the dance!
We start out doing a grapevine to the right, then to the left, pivot turn, pivot turn, "sass" dipp. Sass dip is just like this little hip shake sorta thing. So, I do my sass dip, and as I did it, I looked at Mr. Perv and that's when he did that gross smile thing.
Then, we got to the actual dance. I hate all the boys...they can't count. You would think if they've been on the team for THREE years, they'd know how to count music by now. Anyway, we're supposed to do this series of turns on 4. Well, Jeff had his arms out on 2. So I just waited until 4. Well, acutally like 3 and a half, but it was close.
I did this turn called "Texas Tornado." It makes you SO dizzy. I got so dizzy and I took a couple of extra steps. Then, it was Jessie flippin time! Jessie flip: girl just stays straight, arms sorta crossed at chest. Guy puts right arm around girl's stomach, left at the knees and flips the girl. Since you're being spun kinda fast in mid-air, and the girls are much smaller than the guys, you sorta hop when you land. I ended up hopping like twice. It was kinda weird.
Then, we got to this thing called mushroom. I really can't explain it. There's guy mushroom, where the girl spins the guy, then girl mushroom, where the guy spins the girl. Jeff spun me, and as we did "the sexy move", veil, he grabbed my hand and my HAIR! Since we didn't have time to just let go and do the move anyway, I had to spin with him hold my by my hand and my hair. I'm sure it looked pretty funny. I tried really hard not to scream or laugh or anything.
Then, the funnest thing ever, hip dip! This is NOT the one I have problems with. On this one, the girl and guy hold opposite hands. Then, the guy's other hand is on her waist, and her hand is on his shoulder. The girl jumps, the guy squats, and your hips are "locked" together. The girl's left leg is bent and her right is straight, and right by his head. The girl's head ends up about an inch and a half off of the ground, and between his feet. Since you're upside down, it's quite hard to look at the judges.
So, I decided to turn my head a little more, and I saw the floor. That was pretty bad.
Then, we did some two-stepping. It's like the easiest move, but I ended up messing it up some. I know they saw it cause they immediately marked something on their little papers when I did an extra step, step.
My dips that I've had trouble with...wow. THEY WERE FREAKING AMAZING! I was SO excited. I guess it was the adrenaline, because they couldn't have been better! I stepped out at the perfect place, and I did it right. I was so excited that I forgot to point my foot! Yay for me.
Then, we did our last three moves: Sit 'n Spin, Thread the Needle, and The Cliffhanger.
Sit 'n Spin is this turn that you both do at the same time, but while the girl is spinning, she sorta squats down. Thread the needle is ALWAYS done right after sit n spin. Basically, the girl is the thread, and the guy's arm is the needle hole. You just go through.
Then, Cliffhanger! Parents hate watching this one. The girl is holding the guy's right hand with her left. Her right arm is up on her chest. The guy rolls her in, she lifts her left leg. He grabs it with his left arm. The girl jumps up, and her body is totally perpendicular to the guy's head. The guy then rolls her down the length of his body. Now, the girl only falls if SHE forgets to do one thing: bend her right leg. That's the only way the guy is able to catch her.
It scares parents because first of all, they think their daughter is going to be dropped. Second, when you end cliffhanger, the girl's head is literally ONE INCH off of the floor. It's actually one of the easiest things, but they do it just for show.
Then, Jeff and I linked arms again, and he says through his smile, "Say thanks!" So, I did. Again, in this little voice.
I was SO happy to get out of there! As soon as you get to where the judges can't see you, you see every group just celebrate and jump, laugh, high-five, whatever.
I felt like a bijillion times better once I got out of there!
But I wished I could go back and do it over. I don't think I did too well. I really don't know if I will make it! I really hope so!
That was a post from ddn. Here was my follow up:
You guys, this is so hard for me to tell you, but, I didn't make it.
I really wish I could scream "just kidding!" but I can't because I really didn't make it.
I feel horrible right now. So many girls who's hearts totally weren't into it, and they (in my opinion) didn't deserve ended up making it. I'm so angry. I'm really angry at the co-director. She's my dance teacher and she was so proud of me, and she just knew that I was going to get it. She would say, "You're gonna make such a good Rambler next year!" and stuff like that.
I was so excited, you guys. I wanted this SO bad, and I really am having a hard time believing that I didn't make it. I definetly had doubts in my mind, and anytime I would even THINK about not making it, I would start crying. It's as if I knew I wouldn't make it.
I'm also almost mad for not ryouing out last year because everyone who tried out last year ended up making it this year.
And there's this girl, Kristen, I was almost positive that she wasn't going to get it. She would have SO many mistakes and stuff and Clint (one of our friends) would practice with us, and the other day he whispered to me, "I really will be surprised if you make it and Kristen does." And, look. She did.
One of the hardest things to me is that so many people thought I was going to make it. They had no doubts in their minds that I wasn't going to and it's going to be so hard tomorrow and Monday, telling these people that I didn't make it.
Like I said before, at first, I could've cared less whether or not I would make it, but within the last few weeks, my heart has totally grown into it. It's so hard. I really want to talk to the co-director. And two of my guy friends. I think they're the only one's who might be able to help me. Not to get on, cause obviously, that can't happen now, but just to talk about it.
The only other thing I'm SUPER scared of is what if I don't make it next year? Next year will be my last year, and I wanted this so bad. You guys, thank you for all of your support. It really means a lot to me. Unfortunately, the judges don't know how dedicated I have been and how well I really do without them watching.
I think i'm gonna make a couple of calls and keep crying. My head is killing me from all of this crying. I guess I REALLY didn't know that I wanted it THIS bad. I almost feel as if I've let some people down. I really and truly thought I would be a shoe-in. I'm wrong. I feel horrible. It's gonna be SO hard to tell Jordan and Clint. They both were so supportive of me, and knew how bad I wanted this. I actually really just want to go sit and like see a movie or something with them both.
I called Erin and talked to her about it. She was so surprised. I called her, and she knew I was crying. I took a deep breath, said sorry, and I burst out and told her. She goes, "ARE YOU SERIOUS?" I told her yeah. Then, I told her that Voula made it. She was so mad.
And now, I'm going to give lyrics to a great song. It's called Beautiful by Bethany Dillon. It makes me feel happy and makes me cry at the same time.
I was so unique, but now I feel skin deep.
Count on the makeup to cover it all.
Crying myself to sleep cause I cannot keep their attention.
Thought I could be strong, but it's killing me.
Does someone hear my cry? I'm dying for new life.
I wanna be beautiful.
Make you stand in awe. Look inside my heart, and be amazed.
I want to hear you say who I am is quite enough.
I just wanna be worthy of love, and beautiful.
Sometimes I wish I was someone other than me.
Fighting to make the mirror happy.
Trying to find whatever is missing.
Won't you help me back, to glory?
I wanna be beautiful, make you stand in awe.
Look inside my heart, and be amazed.
I want to hear you say who I am is quite enough.
I just wanna be worthy of love, and beautiful.
You make me beautiful, you make me stand in awe.
You stepped inside my heart, and I am amazed.
I love to hear you say who I am is quite enough.
You make me worthy of love and beautiful.
And, I'm not kidding. I really wish I was.
I'll tell you guys how try-outs went anyway.
Okay, so, I tryed out bright and early this morning, but I won't find out results until 3. I will definetly tell you guys.
So, I'll just tell yall about how the tryouts went.
Okay, let me just start out by saying this: I hope I never hear the song, "Take It Easy" by Travis Tritt ever again. Do you know how many times i've heard it in the past 3 months? I don't even know! Too many, that's how many.
Anway. So, I woke up at 7 this morning. I ate Cheerios. I brushed my teeth. Put on some mascara. Put on blue jeans, the white t-shirt, socks, and of course, my boots! I decided to put my hair half-up. I spun around, did some stuff to see if that was a sufficient hairstyle. It was.
I then took off all my jewelry. That was sad. I feel weird without it. I didn't even get to wear my signature hoop earrings. But that's okay. I think i'd rather go without earrings and have normal earlobes than wear them and risk having messed up earlobes.
I got to school at around 7:45. There were a lot of people there. I practiced my horrible dips with three guys. Grant, at around 8. They were getting better. Then with Jordan a little bit after 8. This lady was telling me how to do them which I hate because she's never done it. Let me see you do it and keep your foot in the right place! I was just glad I got to see Jordan. He's like my best friend, and a secret crush! Whoo.
Then, I practiced the whole dance with my partner litterally right before we went out. My dips were getting better.
Then, at around 8:05, it was my turn. I was FREAKED! Everyone thought I was going to pass out because I kept taking in tons of really deep breaths.
So, Jeff and I got out to where we were trying out. Jeff is the captain, so I knew he could make me look pretty good! We go out there, and I'm like, "Hi, I'm Raychel." and I smiled. I noticed how weird the judges were immediately.
The one and only guy looked sorta pervy. I did this one dip and I gave him this look and sorta flirted with him, and he raised his eyebrows and smiled. I was like "Ew!"
The woman in the middle was older than the other two judges. She seemed pretty mean, too. I don't think I ever saw her smile. She just sat there with a blank face the whole time. It was sorta scary.
Then, the last woman was really young and really pretty. According to all of the third years, she has been judging "since forever." She smiled like once, but hey, it was nice!
Now, onto the dance!
We start out doing a grapevine to the right, then to the left, pivot turn, pivot turn, "sass" dipp. Sass dip is just like this little hip shake sorta thing. So, I do my sass dip, and as I did it, I looked at Mr. Perv and that's when he did that gross smile thing.
Then, we got to the actual dance. I hate all the boys...they can't count. You would think if they've been on the team for THREE years, they'd know how to count music by now. Anyway, we're supposed to do this series of turns on 4. Well, Jeff had his arms out on 2. So I just waited until 4. Well, acutally like 3 and a half, but it was close.
I did this turn called "Texas Tornado." It makes you SO dizzy. I got so dizzy and I took a couple of extra steps. Then, it was Jessie flippin time! Jessie flip: girl just stays straight, arms sorta crossed at chest. Guy puts right arm around girl's stomach, left at the knees and flips the girl. Since you're being spun kinda fast in mid-air, and the girls are much smaller than the guys, you sorta hop when you land. I ended up hopping like twice. It was kinda weird.
Then, we got to this thing called mushroom. I really can't explain it. There's guy mushroom, where the girl spins the guy, then girl mushroom, where the guy spins the girl. Jeff spun me, and as we did "the sexy move", veil, he grabbed my hand and my HAIR! Since we didn't have time to just let go and do the move anyway, I had to spin with him hold my by my hand and my hair. I'm sure it looked pretty funny. I tried really hard not to scream or laugh or anything.
Then, the funnest thing ever, hip dip! This is NOT the one I have problems with. On this one, the girl and guy hold opposite hands. Then, the guy's other hand is on her waist, and her hand is on his shoulder. The girl jumps, the guy squats, and your hips are "locked" together. The girl's left leg is bent and her right is straight, and right by his head. The girl's head ends up about an inch and a half off of the ground, and between his feet. Since you're upside down, it's quite hard to look at the judges.
So, I decided to turn my head a little more, and I saw the floor. That was pretty bad.
Then, we did some two-stepping. It's like the easiest move, but I ended up messing it up some. I know they saw it cause they immediately marked something on their little papers when I did an extra step, step.
My dips that I've had trouble with...wow. THEY WERE FREAKING AMAZING! I was SO excited. I guess it was the adrenaline, because they couldn't have been better! I stepped out at the perfect place, and I did it right. I was so excited that I forgot to point my foot! Yay for me.
Then, we did our last three moves: Sit 'n Spin, Thread the Needle, and The Cliffhanger.
Sit 'n Spin is this turn that you both do at the same time, but while the girl is spinning, she sorta squats down. Thread the needle is ALWAYS done right after sit n spin. Basically, the girl is the thread, and the guy's arm is the needle hole. You just go through.
Then, Cliffhanger! Parents hate watching this one. The girl is holding the guy's right hand with her left. Her right arm is up on her chest. The guy rolls her in, she lifts her left leg. He grabs it with his left arm. The girl jumps up, and her body is totally perpendicular to the guy's head. The guy then rolls her down the length of his body. Now, the girl only falls if SHE forgets to do one thing: bend her right leg. That's the only way the guy is able to catch her.
It scares parents because first of all, they think their daughter is going to be dropped. Second, when you end cliffhanger, the girl's head is literally ONE INCH off of the floor. It's actually one of the easiest things, but they do it just for show.
Then, Jeff and I linked arms again, and he says through his smile, "Say thanks!" So, I did. Again, in this little voice.
I was SO happy to get out of there! As soon as you get to where the judges can't see you, you see every group just celebrate and jump, laugh, high-five, whatever.
I felt like a bijillion times better once I got out of there!
But I wished I could go back and do it over. I don't think I did too well. I really don't know if I will make it! I really hope so!
That was a post from ddn. Here was my follow up:
You guys, this is so hard for me to tell you, but, I didn't make it.
I really wish I could scream "just kidding!" but I can't because I really didn't make it.
I feel horrible right now. So many girls who's hearts totally weren't into it, and they (in my opinion) didn't deserve ended up making it. I'm so angry. I'm really angry at the co-director. She's my dance teacher and she was so proud of me, and she just knew that I was going to get it. She would say, "You're gonna make such a good Rambler next year!" and stuff like that.
I was so excited, you guys. I wanted this SO bad, and I really am having a hard time believing that I didn't make it. I definetly had doubts in my mind, and anytime I would even THINK about not making it, I would start crying. It's as if I knew I wouldn't make it.
I'm also almost mad for not ryouing out last year because everyone who tried out last year ended up making it this year.
And there's this girl, Kristen, I was almost positive that she wasn't going to get it. She would have SO many mistakes and stuff and Clint (one of our friends) would practice with us, and the other day he whispered to me, "I really will be surprised if you make it and Kristen does." And, look. She did.
One of the hardest things to me is that so many people thought I was going to make it. They had no doubts in their minds that I wasn't going to and it's going to be so hard tomorrow and Monday, telling these people that I didn't make it.
Like I said before, at first, I could've cared less whether or not I would make it, but within the last few weeks, my heart has totally grown into it. It's so hard. I really want to talk to the co-director. And two of my guy friends. I think they're the only one's who might be able to help me. Not to get on, cause obviously, that can't happen now, but just to talk about it.
The only other thing I'm SUPER scared of is what if I don't make it next year? Next year will be my last year, and I wanted this so bad. You guys, thank you for all of your support. It really means a lot to me. Unfortunately, the judges don't know how dedicated I have been and how well I really do without them watching.
I think i'm gonna make a couple of calls and keep crying. My head is killing me from all of this crying. I guess I REALLY didn't know that I wanted it THIS bad. I almost feel as if I've let some people down. I really and truly thought I would be a shoe-in. I'm wrong. I feel horrible. It's gonna be SO hard to tell Jordan and Clint. They both were so supportive of me, and knew how bad I wanted this. I actually really just want to go sit and like see a movie or something with them both.
I called Erin and talked to her about it. She was so surprised. I called her, and she knew I was crying. I took a deep breath, said sorry, and I burst out and told her. She goes, "ARE YOU SERIOUS?" I told her yeah. Then, I told her that Voula made it. She was so mad.
And now, I'm going to give lyrics to a great song. It's called Beautiful by Bethany Dillon. It makes me feel happy and makes me cry at the same time.
I was so unique, but now I feel skin deep.
Count on the makeup to cover it all.
Crying myself to sleep cause I cannot keep their attention.
Thought I could be strong, but it's killing me.
Does someone hear my cry? I'm dying for new life.
I wanna be beautiful.
Make you stand in awe. Look inside my heart, and be amazed.
I want to hear you say who I am is quite enough.
I just wanna be worthy of love, and beautiful.
Sometimes I wish I was someone other than me.
Fighting to make the mirror happy.
Trying to find whatever is missing.
Won't you help me back, to glory?
I wanna be beautiful, make you stand in awe.
Look inside my heart, and be amazed.
I want to hear you say who I am is quite enough.
I just wanna be worthy of love, and beautiful.
You make me beautiful, you make me stand in awe.
You stepped inside my heart, and I am amazed.
I love to hear you say who I am is quite enough.
You make me worthy of love and beautiful.