Heart broken
Ah, It's been days since I last wrote in this journal. ><
I haven't done anything productive this summer. Maybe except for making origami, learning piano and kanji.
Minna! Add me in FB: facebook.com/hayoooooo lol so random
Anyways, today I feel heartbroken. More like I feel hopeless. I can't go to Japan because of Visa shizz. And AriYama and Yamajima are hurting me. Why can't there be more exposure for YamaChii? >< There's a person in the FB group that knew Yamachan since he was 8 yo meaning she knew him before he joined the group. It hurts me so much >< To think that maybe she is meant for Yamachan, I want something like that too.
Too bad Chinen doesn't know me. And there are prettier girls compared to me. I was just so happy of our small height differences with Chinen. *sigh* I wish I could see Chinen right now. Maybe I'll start calling him Yuuri so that I'll be happy even just by a bit. Daijoubu! I'll start saving so that I can go to Japan sooner or later.
So... school is almost coming! Excited or not? I feel like I'm in between. Excited because I will see my bestfriend and friends there :) Not because SCHOOL DAYS WONT STOP COMING!!!
My -ish goal for the entire school year is that I'll do my best so that I can match Yuuri's kyaa intelligence.
Ijou!! Raychii deshita
SO HANDSOME!!
I haven't done anything productive this summer. Maybe except for making origami, learning piano and kanji.
Minna! Add me in FB: facebook.com/hayoooooo lol so random
Anyways, today I feel heartbroken. More like I feel hopeless. I can't go to Japan because of Visa shizz. And AriYama and Yamajima are hurting me. Why can't there be more exposure for YamaChii? >< There's a person in the FB group that knew Yamachan since he was 8 yo meaning she knew him before he joined the group. It hurts me so much >< To think that maybe she is meant for Yamachan, I want something like that too.
Too bad Chinen doesn't know me. And there are prettier girls compared to me. I was just so happy of our small height differences with Chinen. *sigh* I wish I could see Chinen right now. Maybe I'll start calling him Yuuri so that I'll be happy even just by a bit. Daijoubu! I'll start saving so that I can go to Japan sooner or later.
So... school is almost coming! Excited or not? I feel like I'm in between. Excited because I will see my bestfriend and friends there :) Not because SCHOOL DAYS WONT STOP COMING!!!
My -ish goal for the entire school year is that I'll do my best so that I can match Yuuri's kyaa intelligence.
Ijou!! Raychii deshita
SO HANDSOME!!