epifany...sp?
i have come to the sudden conclusion that i cant wait to get the eff out of chilliwack...my mom and dad want to move to the states when i grad... and suddenly im not hating the idea.. my dad has gone for two interviews in verginia .. but the job opening is for Dallas Texas ... i have never lived anywhere eles but chilliwack, and most people in my situation fear/dred the day they have to leave .. for me i cant wait .. there is nothing hear! chilliwack is small little hick town, and when i think about everything in the world ... well its depressing that i have wasted my teenage years hear.. but dont get me wrong i have had some great times ... but chilliwack for me is like living in a box ... the same people everyday the same routine its like a never ending circle ... but its not so easy, i cant just pack up and leave when the time comes .. i think that living somewhere your whole life makes it a billion times harded to leave simply because of the people i have grown up with ... its weird to think that if i leave nothing will ever be familiar .. i have lived hear my whole life the same people everyday i have grown to depend on them... not just my closes friends but the people who have just bin there in my school... it doesnt seem like a big deal but if you actually think about it even if you havent talked to most of the people in your school ... you have watched those familar faces grow up and they have always bin there .. which for me makes change hard those faces in the croud are no longer familar replace them with people you have never seen before *am i making sense* probably not but im going to continue to babble... but the thing that is the most scary .. is knowing that if i leave that means leaving the only friends i've ever known(jodi,jessica,ashley,jordan,ryan,vikki)they have bin my friends since as far back as i can remember and i have never had anyother best friends it feels like i wouldnt know how to start a new friendship that would be the scareyest thing to know that the only people i trust wouldnt be there i duno maybe its the crack! but this entre is far to long .. and i know how anoying long entres are trust me! so i will conclude this stream of conchesness... g'nite fuckers