it seems to be all fizzling out
i think the orchestra is going down the tubes. i'd be surprised if we last through the end of the year. i think this weekend's concert will be our last.
i'm not frightened or angry or sad or anything about it. i think i'm just sort of relieved. that and shellshocked by 10 years of constant stress and anxiety.
all of the oracles, and by that i mean more than cards and lots and runes and such, have been pointing to me moving on. i got a very clear message that i need to figure out what that is to me--and more importantly, i need to deal with some past issues that are keeping me from seeing my course to the future correctly. looks like i'm going to be doing a series of baths and meditations and some serious work.
i look forward to opening a new chapter in my life.
on a brighter note, i'm off to go have dinner with my latest seeker. we shall chat about the brotherhood, his interests, my grove, etc...and see if there's a need to go further. i like him, he's a good guy. i think it will probably be a "yes" moment.
i'm not frightened or angry or sad or anything about it. i think i'm just sort of relieved. that and shellshocked by 10 years of constant stress and anxiety.
all of the oracles, and by that i mean more than cards and lots and runes and such, have been pointing to me moving on. i got a very clear message that i need to figure out what that is to me--and more importantly, i need to deal with some past issues that are keeping me from seeing my course to the future correctly. looks like i'm going to be doing a series of baths and meditations and some serious work.
i look forward to opening a new chapter in my life.
on a brighter note, i'm off to go have dinner with my latest seeker. we shall chat about the brotherhood, his interests, my grove, etc...and see if there's a need to go further. i like him, he's a good guy. i think it will probably be a "yes" moment.