Goodbye my love~
We're both happy without each other. I don't need her, she doesn't need me. You know how they say there's no such thing as loved? It's not love at all if you say you LOVED that person. I can honestly say I STILL love Claudine. Sure not as much. Sure we're probably not even friends anymore. She hasn't talked to me since I poured out all my feelings to her which has been over a month, and I do NOT expect her to say anything now. Our so called friendship felt like one sided love to me [: I always looked at my friends as somehow my lovers before, and I still kind of do. Well it was nice knowing her. It was nice to feel that I had a best friend. She didn't really feel like my best friend. I never did feel like I had my OWN best friend [: I say God is my best friend [: Sometimes it makes me sad that well obviously he won't talk back but he knows everything about me without me even having to say a word. Ejay's also a best friend of mine [: But I don't want to take him away from HIS BEST FRIEND. I'm envious of everyone who has their own best friend cause I can't honestly say I really have one to call my own. I have lots of friends whom I call best friends because they are--- But you know I still feel different. They all knew someone longer and are best friends which makes me envious. Someone told me, why aren't you happy? You have a boyfriend. Sure Ejay means a heck a lot to me<3 He really does but my whole world does NOT revolve around him although he claims his revolves around me. It's not fair to his friends and not fair to mine if it did. Ha , funny. I just read a quote. "We promised we'd be best friends forever.... so what happened?" Claudine and I did promise that---ridiculous. That's one reason why I no longer made promises :[ Then I started to make promises again because of Ejay and I'm hoping none of those promises break. I don't believe in "promises are meant to be broken." It's YOUR choice if you want it to and my decision is that I'm keeping my promises. Claudine Claudine Claudine. I sure had a great love for her. I guess it just wasn't enough in the end [: No, I'm not emo. Sure it's sad, a friendship ended but look at this, I gained more when it did(: Goodbye My Squishie.My "Twin." My "First Love." (: { 209 pictures of just me and her~ what happened? XD }