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holy shoot I honestly feel like taking a day off RP and just marathonning series. I've never seriously considered that before. Normally tags in my inbox bother me.
But! Goal for the week: finish Gundam 00 and Ergo Proxy. And TWEWY.
Annnd I have an app written up for Toboe for SP but ajksngfkh I should wait a month and finish all of these series before settling on my final character. ;A; It's been a while since I've wanted to app so many hhgg. I'm displeased with my character roister (or, more accurately, I want to play too many of my characters).
why does this bagel smell like it's raisiny.
OKAY NO I have more things to say. uuh. oh right. sorry Bakhu--
I MIGHT BE GOING TO CHINA.
Given, it'll be in two years, but JESUS CHRIST ON A MUHAMMAD SANDWICH Chinaaaa. Yeeee. I've no idea what we'd see (probably the Great Wall, Forbidden City and Beijing in general), but even the thought. ;A; And it'd be with one of my favorite aunts! jknfhk aaaaa this will be amazing if it goes through. I only hope it goes through. afkjn I really really hope it goes through.
Speaking of foreign country visiting. Signed up for the German exchange program, and jksanfkjh ahaaaha I'm terrified over the girl we got. I can get along with pretty much anyone once I talk to them enough, but I've got the feeling this girl's one of the few types that I'd never be able to click with. never mind for long periods of time. but. I should be optimistic! exchange students are generally awesome people.
and if all else falls through, my friend's offered to let me camp at her place for the month.
Fourth of July/my dad's surprise 50th birthday part went off without a hitch! Ahh, I love my dad's side of the family. ;w; They brought in a prop coffin and put my grandma's life-sized stuffed doll inside of it, had a gravestone set up in front. Everything was black and mournful, it was great. Our priest even came over in his ceremonial robes and gave a short blessing over it. X3 Then I got to hang with my favorite cousins while playing Left 4 Dead, Call of Duty and Assassin's Creed 2. And then boating on the lake! Good, good weekend.
So. This next part's kind of late in coming, but there are a few things I need to get into this lovely online diary journal.
First and foremost, because at this point it's pointless to pretend I'm not a complete retard for Hetalia, I MET THE CREATOR OF THE WORLDWIDE COSPLAY CONFERENCE. As in the America that started it all. holy shit what the hell happened to "no one fandom-orientated lives in Wisconsin." And she's such a nice person. )8 She had a friend who I'm positive is going to become a world dictator but is equally awesome. (Rei, if you're reading this, um, they adored your Turkey. Seriously.) Together, they reminded me of Kyouya and Tamaki. I. Don't think I've ever made comparisons to characters and real life people before this.
but anyhow.
haha art camp. Some of you might or might not know that I live in one of the most white republican country bumpkin/ upper middle class areas in the United States. Like, uh, the neighborhood five minutes from mine is about 600 some strong and votes 100% republican. Our school has a massive fanbase for Star Wars, Star Trek and Harry Potter, but absolutely no love for video games, manga or comic books. The few we do have are all Narutards and COD losers, too. I don't mean to say I hate people who like Naruto. I just dislike people who don't bathe for weeks on end, cosplay as Itachi during school, fight over the girls who are easy to get laid with, are extremely self-centered and otherwise mean. So jumping from that to art camp was. Er. Amazing.
And vaguely hilarious. My mom came to pick me up and she was a fish out of water. A fish out of water and thrown into the Sahara desert. There was one boy who was extremelyyy nice, up until the last day, when he mentioned how conservative, religious and pro life/homophobic he was. Then my friend started a religious debate with him that literally lasted three hours. He had cold lunch, could've sat down, but choose to stand in the obscenely long lines with her, just so they could keep arguing. It was kind of epic to behold.
And then our acrylics teacher came over and sat with us over it. (8 Very nice. Love that lady. She was native Egyptian with a Spanish accent and spoke five languages. Her music tastes were... interesting, to say the least. South African drumbeats right after bad Spanish rap (we were able to identify the second ones by the end of Friday. sure, none of us had a clue what they were saying, but it was interesting to make up stories about why the gruff man was yelling at the sad pansy guy over the phone). Then there was the morning she played nothing but Beatles. fff.
did art trades and nights of sitting on a street curb and drawing. went to the mall and took up the entire manga and comic book section of the bookstore for a good hour. crashed gamestop. participated in throwing money at some kids who were dancing to Lady Gaga, chalk drawing and Mafia. ate rice with pizza. forgot canvases in the dorms and had to run all the way back to get them. air and water and fire and earth bending matches that grew to be 10 people strong. had a teenaged mutant ninja turtle fan as a counselor, a man with a fine manly jaw (no really) for another, and the best charismatic one for the last. that last one had a name no one could pronounce (he was from Jordan), so he went by George for the duration of the week.
nngh, so much fun. I even completed a work I'm actually proud of. hee.
Aaah.
Meme. Then I'm finished.
1. How can I tell if you're angry?
Errr this is a bad question since my general response to anger on my part is to wait it out and think if there's any sides I didn't already think about that'll make me less angry. You'll only be able to tell if I'm pissed in real life if what you did was something confrontational (like shove someone or something). Then I tend to throw all 115 pounds of Irish Pelt at you. Verbally. Of course.
On the internet, uuuh. I make it a point that you can't tell. If I'm angry at some outside force, if you're one of my good friends, I'll probably just tell you. If I'm angry at a person I'm actively IMing, I'll do a lot of xD;;; and :/;; and :<;;'s and keysmash my way out of the conversation.
AGAIN THOUGH I haven't gotten truly angry since I was 11. I'm more likely to just become exasperated. That's when I stop replying to things (or when I'm doing tags, but uh, you'll know the difference).
2. How should I behave around you if you're angry?
If it's toward you (and you're a friend), change the topic and keep talking. It'll make me feel less awkward in the future and wind me down. Do noooot stop talking to me. ;w; But don't talk to me about frivolous stuff. The whole distract-them routine will only frustrate me more. I want srs bsnz when I'm angry.
3. How do you want me to behave when you are hurting emotionally? How is it best to comfort you?
Ask me about what I do and how it's going. :c I probably won't tell you, but the thought helps. Oddly enough, talk to me about RP. Not "hey we should thread this!" but things going on in the universe, characters, relations. Talk to me about fandoms and series! I'm a very bottle-it-up-and-be-anxious kind of person, sooo those topics make me relax. You'll probably end up leading the conversation, though.
But talk to me like a person. "/hugs" and "/clings to" have their time, but unless you're just breaking ice in the first email, I largely don't appreciate those things. Again, same goes with frivolous crap. I might avoid what's bothering me for a good amount of time, but when I do bring it up, I like to get it all out at once and talk about it. And then I go eat ice cream and sob into my cat's belly while watching reruns of MASH.
Egh. If I did that, just put me out of my misery.
4. Are there things we should not discuss?
Uuuh not that I know of. The only rule of thumb when dealing with me is to not make me feel like an idiot. I don't mean by pointing out something I said was wrong, but by being very "adult" and "superior" in your typing or talking...? If I don't know you, I'm extremely susceptible to thinking you think I'm plain stupid. I realize it might just be the way you talk, but it's a paranoia of mine.
Fun fact: up until fifth grade, my elementary thought I was mentally handicapped. The only reason I wasn't put in a special class was because our school was incredibly small and poor and didn't... have anything like a special class.
5. How should I treat you when you are ill?
Leave me be. D: When I'm ill, I'm more happy to watch series or read a book or play a game or tag. I feel like being lazy, and talking to people takes too much continued effort. This goes on the internet and in real life.
6. What makes you happy that's in my power to grant you?
TALK TO ME ABOUT RP AND FANDOMS. haha. these topics never fail to make me happy, no matter where I am. mostly because I only get to talk about them on the internet (my real life is very rp and fandom free). unless I don't really know you-- then it just gets more awkward, since I don't know how far into my fangirling I'm supposed to go. D8
Talking to me even if I'm slow at replying makes me smile, too. Just... no... paragraphing! Short sentences! Short! Only debates require paragraphing! Tell me life stories. This is going to sound creepy, but guuuh I love life stories. love love love. love hearing other people's opinions and problems, too, and helping them out. though strangely, if the closer you are to me, the more and more anxious I get over giving you advice.
7. How would you like us to recongize your birthday?
Don't. :/ A happy birthday's nice, I guess, but I don't consider it anything big. I'm reaaal bad with dates, so I feel horrible when people get me things and I have no clue what to do for them. If you know me in real life, go with me to Jim's and get some ice cream and corndogs. But that's it.
well okay some paid time on rp accounts would be nice but that just occurred to me now. :3?
8. Are there any standing categories of presents that would be inappropriate or unwelcome?
... Sex toys, I guess? Call of Duty and Halo? And food, unless you know what I like. I'm disgustingly picky. I don't want to do an awkward lopsided smile and thank you for the chocolate that I'll never eat.
9. Are there times of the year that are difficult for you? Please explain if you are comfortable.
Nnnot really. Don't talk to me during May, I guess, because I'm probably panicking over school and using my free time to tag around in RP.
10. Are there important anniversaries in your life?
Nooope. Though let it be known that Thanksgiving is my favorite holiday. My dad's side of the family always gets together on that weekend, so it's full of fun and crazy people and good food.
11. How do I cater for you if you are visiting me?
Food! No, uh, just be ready to lead the conversation and activities a bit. I'm EXTREMELY AWKWARD AND SHY during the first half hour of any meeting with any friend. After that, I'll calm down and be chill.
Don't ever repeatedly ask me to do something. The moment someone does that, I lose interest in whatever it is. Also, unless there's a set plan (like a dinner or movie), don't try to keep me around for more than four hours. I'm an introvert at heart: I need my alone time to feel comfortable. I'm real OCD over time, too, since I mentally schedule my day whenever I'm given times. If you say you're going to be gone at 5, please leave at 5. I despise those kids who ask themselves over for longer, since I'm too nice to tell them to gtfo. I end up smiling awkwardly and fidgeting and shuffling and they generally ignore it and then I'm very HHGGGHHHHRRRGGGH for however long they stay.
I've only ever had one friend acknowledge that, yes, I do want them to leave, please (not because I hate them! but because I have other things I want to do, and those things will eat at me until I do them) and I love that friend to pieces just because of that. )x
12. If I want to contact you, how should I do it?
I want to say IM me...? But it really depends on who you are and how the day's going. :/; LJ comments are the best way to talk to me. I'm almost obnoxious in how little I thread drop (if I do, it generally means I think I'm bothering you). If I talk to you over LJ, it means that while yes, I do want to talk to you, I'm too busy to IM, and I don't want you to try to IM me and I end up... not replying. It's rarely, rarely ever a case of "oh my god I hate you" or "you're incredibly boring" if I don't reply in IM. Just. So you know.
Errr. Never e-mail me. I'm prone to ignoring direct e-mails for ages, for whatever reason. AND NEVER CALL ME phones are a heck of a waste of time. Skype would be even worse. Facebook is only slightly better than plurk. Both are things I rarely check.
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Oh yeah. I should be. Making a backstory and character design for my D&D character.
Still would rather watch Gundam 00.
I need a new mood theme thing, too, even though I've completely forgotten how to install those.
also tempted to rehaul my character's icons. kjnsafn I've been sucky at tagging and talking to friends all weekend, I shouldn't be doing this.
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holy shoot I honestly feel like taking a day off RP and just marathonning series. I've never seriously considered that before. Normally tags in my inbox bother me.
But! Goal for the week: finish Gundam 00 and Ergo Proxy. And TWEWY.
Annnd I have an app written up for Toboe for SP but ajksngfkh I should wait a month and finish all of these series before settling on my final character. ;A; It's been a while since I've wanted to app so many hhgg. I'm displeased with my character roister (or, more accurately, I want to play too many of my characters).
why does this bagel smell like it's raisiny.
OKAY NO I have more things to say. uuh. oh right. sorry Bakhu--
I MIGHT BE GOING TO CHINA.
Given, it'll be in two years, but JESUS CHRIST ON A MUHAMMAD SANDWICH Chinaaaa. Yeeee. I've no idea what we'd see (probably the Great Wall, Forbidden City and Beijing in general), but even the thought. ;A; And it'd be with one of my favorite aunts! jknfhk aaaaa this will be amazing if it goes through. I only hope it goes through. afkjn I really really hope it goes through.
Speaking of foreign country visiting. Signed up for the German exchange program, and jksanfkjh ahaaaha I'm terrified over the girl we got. I can get along with pretty much anyone once I talk to them enough, but I've got the feeling this girl's one of the few types that I'd never be able to click with. never mind for long periods of time. but. I should be optimistic! exchange students are generally awesome people.
and if all else falls through, my friend's offered to let me camp at her place for the month.
Fourth of July/my dad's surprise 50th birthday part went off without a hitch! Ahh, I love my dad's side of the family. ;w; They brought in a prop coffin and put my grandma's life-sized stuffed doll inside of it, had a gravestone set up in front. Everything was black and mournful, it was great. Our priest even came over in his ceremonial robes and gave a short blessing over it. X3 Then I got to hang with my favorite cousins while playing Left 4 Dead, Call of Duty and Assassin's Creed 2. And then boating on the lake! Good, good weekend.
So. This next part's kind of late in coming, but there are a few things I need to get into this lovely online diary journal.
First and foremost, because at this point it's pointless to pretend I'm not a complete retard for Hetalia, I MET THE CREATOR OF THE WORLDWIDE COSPLAY CONFERENCE. As in the America that started it all. holy shit what the hell happened to "no one fandom-orientated lives in Wisconsin." And she's such a nice person. )8 She had a friend who I'm positive is going to become a world dictator but is equally awesome. (Rei, if you're reading this, um, they adored your Turkey. Seriously.) Together, they reminded me of Kyouya and Tamaki. I. Don't think I've ever made comparisons to characters and real life people before this.
but anyhow.
haha art camp. Some of you might or might not know that I live in one of the most white republican country bumpkin/ upper middle class areas in the United States. Like, uh, the neighborhood five minutes from mine is about 600 some strong and votes 100% republican. Our school has a massive fanbase for Star Wars, Star Trek and Harry Potter, but absolutely no love for video games, manga or comic books. The few we do have are all Narutards and COD losers, too. I don't mean to say I hate people who like Naruto. I just dislike people who don't bathe for weeks on end, cosplay as Itachi during school, fight over the girls who are easy to get laid with, are extremely self-centered and otherwise mean. So jumping from that to art camp was. Er. Amazing.
And vaguely hilarious. My mom came to pick me up and she was a fish out of water. A fish out of water and thrown into the Sahara desert. There was one boy who was extremelyyy nice, up until the last day, when he mentioned how conservative, religious and pro life/homophobic he was. Then my friend started a religious debate with him that literally lasted three hours. He had cold lunch, could've sat down, but choose to stand in the obscenely long lines with her, just so they could keep arguing. It was kind of epic to behold.
And then our acrylics teacher came over and sat with us over it. (8 Very nice. Love that lady. She was native Egyptian with a Spanish accent and spoke five languages. Her music tastes were... interesting, to say the least. South African drumbeats right after bad Spanish rap (we were able to identify the second ones by the end of Friday. sure, none of us had a clue what they were saying, but it was interesting to make up stories about why the gruff man was yelling at the sad pansy guy over the phone). Then there was the morning she played nothing but Beatles. fff.
did art trades and nights of sitting on a street curb and drawing. went to the mall and took up the entire manga and comic book section of the bookstore for a good hour. crashed gamestop. participated in throwing money at some kids who were dancing to Lady Gaga, chalk drawing and Mafia. ate rice with pizza. forgot canvases in the dorms and had to run all the way back to get them. air and water and fire and earth bending matches that grew to be 10 people strong. had a teenaged mutant ninja turtle fan as a counselor, a man with a fine manly jaw (no really) for another, and the best charismatic one for the last. that last one had a name no one could pronounce (he was from Jordan), so he went by George for the duration of the week.
nngh, so much fun. I even completed a work I'm actually proud of. hee.
Aaah.
Meme. Then I'm finished.
1. How can I tell if you're angry?
Errr this is a bad question since my general response to anger on my part is to wait it out and think if there's any sides I didn't already think about that'll make me less angry. You'll only be able to tell if I'm pissed in real life if what you did was something confrontational (like shove someone or something). Then I tend to throw all 115 pounds of Irish Pelt at you. Verbally. Of course.
On the internet, uuuh. I make it a point that you can't tell. If I'm angry at some outside force, if you're one of my good friends, I'll probably just tell you. If I'm angry at a person I'm actively IMing, I'll do a lot of xD;;; and :/;; and :<;;'s and keysmash my way out of the conversation.
AGAIN THOUGH I haven't gotten truly angry since I was 11. I'm more likely to just become exasperated. That's when I stop replying to things (or when I'm doing tags, but uh, you'll know the difference).
2. How should I behave around you if you're angry?
If it's toward you (and you're a friend), change the topic and keep talking. It'll make me feel less awkward in the future and wind me down. Do noooot stop talking to me. ;w; But don't talk to me about frivolous stuff. The whole distract-them routine will only frustrate me more. I want srs bsnz when I'm angry.
3. How do you want me to behave when you are hurting emotionally? How is it best to comfort you?
Ask me about what I do and how it's going. :c I probably won't tell you, but the thought helps. Oddly enough, talk to me about RP. Not "hey we should thread this!" but things going on in the universe, characters, relations. Talk to me about fandoms and series! I'm a very bottle-it-up-and-be-anxious kind of person, sooo those topics make me relax. You'll probably end up leading the conversation, though.
But talk to me like a person. "/hugs" and "/clings to" have their time, but unless you're just breaking ice in the first email, I largely don't appreciate those things. Again, same goes with frivolous crap. I might avoid what's bothering me for a good amount of time, but when I do bring it up, I like to get it all out at once and talk about it. And then I go eat ice cream and sob into my cat's belly while watching reruns of MASH.
Egh. If I did that, just put me out of my misery.
4. Are there things we should not discuss?
Uuuh not that I know of. The only rule of thumb when dealing with me is to not make me feel like an idiot. I don't mean by pointing out something I said was wrong, but by being very "adult" and "superior" in your typing or talking...? If I don't know you, I'm extremely susceptible to thinking you think I'm plain stupid. I realize it might just be the way you talk, but it's a paranoia of mine.
Fun fact: up until fifth grade, my elementary thought I was mentally handicapped. The only reason I wasn't put in a special class was because our school was incredibly small and poor and didn't... have anything like a special class.
5. How should I treat you when you are ill?
Leave me be. D: When I'm ill, I'm more happy to watch series or read a book or play a game or tag. I feel like being lazy, and talking to people takes too much continued effort. This goes on the internet and in real life.
6. What makes you happy that's in my power to grant you?
TALK TO ME ABOUT RP AND FANDOMS. haha. these topics never fail to make me happy, no matter where I am. mostly because I only get to talk about them on the internet (my real life is very rp and fandom free). unless I don't really know you-- then it just gets more awkward, since I don't know how far into my fangirling I'm supposed to go. D8
Talking to me even if I'm slow at replying makes me smile, too. Just... no... paragraphing! Short sentences! Short! Only debates require paragraphing! Tell me life stories. This is going to sound creepy, but guuuh I love life stories. love love love. love hearing other people's opinions and problems, too, and helping them out. though strangely, if the closer you are to me, the more and more anxious I get over giving you advice.
7. How would you like us to recongize your birthday?
Don't. :/ A happy birthday's nice, I guess, but I don't consider it anything big. I'm reaaal bad with dates, so I feel horrible when people get me things and I have no clue what to do for them. If you know me in real life, go with me to Jim's and get some ice cream and corndogs. But that's it.
well okay some paid time on rp accounts would be nice but that just occurred to me now. :3?
8. Are there any standing categories of presents that would be inappropriate or unwelcome?
... Sex toys, I guess? Call of Duty and Halo? And food, unless you know what I like. I'm disgustingly picky. I don't want to do an awkward lopsided smile and thank you for the chocolate that I'll never eat.
9. Are there times of the year that are difficult for you? Please explain if you are comfortable.
Nnnot really. Don't talk to me during May, I guess, because I'm probably panicking over school and using my free time to tag around in RP.
10. Are there important anniversaries in your life?
Nooope. Though let it be known that Thanksgiving is my favorite holiday. My dad's side of the family always gets together on that weekend, so it's full of fun and crazy people and good food.
11. How do I cater for you if you are visiting me?
Food! No, uh, just be ready to lead the conversation and activities a bit. I'm EXTREMELY AWKWARD AND SHY during the first half hour of any meeting with any friend. After that, I'll calm down and be chill.
Don't ever repeatedly ask me to do something. The moment someone does that, I lose interest in whatever it is. Also, unless there's a set plan (like a dinner or movie), don't try to keep me around for more than four hours. I'm an introvert at heart: I need my alone time to feel comfortable. I'm real OCD over time, too, since I mentally schedule my day whenever I'm given times. If you say you're going to be gone at 5, please leave at 5. I despise those kids who ask themselves over for longer, since I'm too nice to tell them to gtfo. I end up smiling awkwardly and fidgeting and shuffling and they generally ignore it and then I'm very HHGGGHHHHRRRGGGH for however long they stay.
I've only ever had one friend acknowledge that, yes, I do want them to leave, please (not because I hate them! but because I have other things I want to do, and those things will eat at me until I do them) and I love that friend to pieces just because of that. )x
12. If I want to contact you, how should I do it?
I want to say IM me...? But it really depends on who you are and how the day's going. :/; LJ comments are the best way to talk to me. I'm almost obnoxious in how little I thread drop (if I do, it generally means I think I'm bothering you). If I talk to you over LJ, it means that while yes, I do want to talk to you, I'm too busy to IM, and I don't want you to try to IM me and I end up... not replying. It's rarely, rarely ever a case of "oh my god I hate you" or "you're incredibly boring" if I don't reply in IM. Just. So you know.
Errr. Never e-mail me. I'm prone to ignoring direct e-mails for ages, for whatever reason. AND NEVER CALL ME phones are a heck of a waste of time. Skype would be even worse. Facebook is only slightly better than plurk. Both are things I rarely check.
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Oh yeah. I should be. Making a backstory and character design for my D&D character.
Still would rather watch Gundam 00.
I need a new mood theme thing, too, even though I've completely forgotten how to install those.
also tempted to rehaul my character's icons. kjnsafn I've been sucky at tagging and talking to friends all weekend, I shouldn't be doing this.