Crazy
My sister and I had a convo last night about this girl in her class who has an internship at the correctional facility...my sister told me that the girl told the class about a transgender MTF was placed in the facility but put with the men...my sister said she must be devastated..she has been having her estrogen shots and her voice has changed. My sister said the girl in her class didnt understand why they did not put her in with the females...I dont understand either..she is a female and should be placed with the females...it was cool to see my sister concerned about the situation..I know she fears for me if I was in that kind of situation..I get spooked to cause I have a prosthetic dick that is my penis and I know it would be an uncomfortable situation and people would prob not understand and freak out...I love my sister. she is my 2nd lifeline but I feel she can be damn selfish sometimes...movin here was cool and it was cool she opened up her home to Bre and me...we have different views on thangs..we are VERY different people...we are movin out cause Bre and I want our own place...start our lives together in our own place..to feel settled..my sister does not understand that...she thought the plan was for us to be livin here for a few months like May when she graduates from college..Bre and I cant live here that long..the commute with gas is costin us 240.00 a month..plus we pay 500.00 to live here..we could have our own place. We have access to the house, but we stay in a room with no windows..and it sux..she told me her home was my home after my Mom passed away cause my Mom's home was my home..but it dont feel that way..I knew I would have to handle movin back here without my Mom bein here..but I didnt realize how hard..I have been feelin the same way I did when she passed away and it sux..I miss her..I know the real..I am handlin it, but when I was livin in FL it was easier..my Dad is talkin that I keep to myself...and I dont..I have a lot on the brain and Bre and I just want to feel settled..Physically I am in Maine..but other parts of me is still in FL..I am still havin a hard time with me leavin a great job within a great company from people who became my family and supported me through a lot of shit..to move back home and have to start over again for what reason? To be closer to family who want you to be what they want ya to be?? I am not a kid I am a grown man and have goals and plans in my life with my girl.
Bein home is not what I expected...I miss Fl a lot, but I feel I want to be here but I want to be and feel settled and I dont...Bre and I found an apartment and we are movin this weekend..we are pumped..woot..it is a cool place..not in a apartment complex but an old white house broken up into apartments...the landlord is my asst. front off mgr..she is cool..her husband is cool as hell to..I can see us drinkin some beer together..lol..they will be movin in the apt above us after they renovate it..I got to jet..just tryin to clear the head..
Thank ya God for everythin in my life.
Thank ya Mom for bein everythin in my life.
Thank ya Grams and Gramps for the legacy and everythin.
Thank ya Bre for lovin me like ya do.
Bein home is not what I expected...I miss Fl a lot, but I feel I want to be here but I want to be and feel settled and I dont...Bre and I found an apartment and we are movin this weekend..we are pumped..woot..it is a cool place..not in a apartment complex but an old white house broken up into apartments...the landlord is my asst. front off mgr..she is cool..her husband is cool as hell to..I can see us drinkin some beer together..lol..they will be movin in the apt above us after they renovate it..I got to jet..just tryin to clear the head..
Thank ya God for everythin in my life.
Thank ya Mom for bein everythin in my life.
Thank ya Grams and Gramps for the legacy and everythin.
Thank ya Bre for lovin me like ya do.