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If anyone ever has the chance to go to the scitrek museum in Atlanta- I highly reccomend it :) Ihave not been in years but their planning staff has made my job as field trip co-ordinator a DREAM! :):):):) They not only KNOW what they are talking about but they send you everything IN WRITING way in advance so there is no confusion about it!! UNLIKE the Ren Fair people that are making my upcoming field trip HADES! ARG! That site is constantly changing and the woman that answers the phone acts like she is doing you a favor by talking to you! BOO! Bad Form! Hiss!
I have just made myself look like an absolute FOOL with my families because I was told the wrong adult ticket price! So I can either go in the hole $100+ bucks or tell the parents that want to go that their ticket price is $5 more than what I thought. Why do I feel so bad about it? I have no control over what they are charging- still I feel like I am the one making it so costly! Arg- I have some left over guilt from something that is rearing its ugly subconscience head I am sure! :( Blech.
I have been feeling all my sins this week if that makes sense- all the bad things I have ever done in my life are visiting my mind and keeping me awake. Making my insomnia worse and my anxiety triple. I feel as if at any time someone can look at me and see all my horrid secrets written on my face. I have confessed my sins to God I believe in salvation- why am I feeling this way?? I am trying to think of ways to make ammends but there is no way to make ammends for some of them and others I dont want to deal with. I am not a 'bad' person any more- I have not been in a long time- I have not been overly bad in my life- maybe all these things are not really so BAD afterall- maybe I am such a goody two shoes that they seem REALLY bad in my mind.
I need some vitamin Z tonight I think.
OH- and the part time date entry place I have been working to keep insurance (That was part of the deal if I went back part time I could have insurance) is taking away my insurance. So I am scheduling eye surgery, wisdom teeth removal, gyno visit, physical, blood work, shrink, chiropracter, and anything else I can think of in the next 40 days. I never go to the doc- I wish I had the $1800 they have taken out of my check for insurance the past 2 years if they were gonna cancel on me! Blech. I am going to call my doc and see if I can get a 90 day prescrip for the Vitamin Z so i can have 3 months worth before they jerk my insurance. I hardly take it like i SHOULD be taking it- if I took it i bet i would be 1- sleeping now 2- not so anxious all the time.
If anyone knows a personal insurance company that is not too $$ let me know! Why cant we just have national health care!
ok going to try to sleep
gnite!
I have just made myself look like an absolute FOOL with my families because I was told the wrong adult ticket price! So I can either go in the hole $100+ bucks or tell the parents that want to go that their ticket price is $5 more than what I thought. Why do I feel so bad about it? I have no control over what they are charging- still I feel like I am the one making it so costly! Arg- I have some left over guilt from something that is rearing its ugly subconscience head I am sure! :( Blech.
I have been feeling all my sins this week if that makes sense- all the bad things I have ever done in my life are visiting my mind and keeping me awake. Making my insomnia worse and my anxiety triple. I feel as if at any time someone can look at me and see all my horrid secrets written on my face. I have confessed my sins to God I believe in salvation- why am I feeling this way?? I am trying to think of ways to make ammends but there is no way to make ammends for some of them and others I dont want to deal with. I am not a 'bad' person any more- I have not been in a long time- I have not been overly bad in my life- maybe all these things are not really so BAD afterall- maybe I am such a goody two shoes that they seem REALLY bad in my mind.
I need some vitamin Z tonight I think.
OH- and the part time date entry place I have been working to keep insurance (That was part of the deal if I went back part time I could have insurance) is taking away my insurance. So I am scheduling eye surgery, wisdom teeth removal, gyno visit, physical, blood work, shrink, chiropracter, and anything else I can think of in the next 40 days. I never go to the doc- I wish I had the $1800 they have taken out of my check for insurance the past 2 years if they were gonna cancel on me! Blech. I am going to call my doc and see if I can get a 90 day prescrip for the Vitamin Z so i can have 3 months worth before they jerk my insurance. I hardly take it like i SHOULD be taking it- if I took it i bet i would be 1- sleeping now 2- not so anxious all the time.
If anyone knows a personal insurance company that is not too $$ let me know! Why cant we just have national health care!
ok going to try to sleep
gnite!