nightmares
... i suppose i cant sleep now. earlier i fell into an exausted, fitful sleep and had what i call waking dreams. they are horrible. a few mins ago i was in the middle of one when my phone rang and startled me awake. its one of the worst feelings in the world and i feel the need to describe it somewhere since i have to get it out of my mind somehow. its like being unable to breath, every muscle in my body constricted at once, i actualy have bruises developing, im watching them as i type. then there was a wave of panic, then of histeria, i was crying without knowing why. just horrible fear, pain, and adrenalin. all in a time span of about 30 seconds. my head is pounding, i dont know if i will sleep for the rest of the night. i do not like nightmares...