im ok...

[ravnos_ravenous]

ok here is a update, sorry guys Ive been kinda a wreck for the last bit o time. apparently everything is working out and were not as bad off as i thought. this inst vary hard to believe considering i have about no brains as far as this while situation goes. the thing that got me most of all was seeing my mom like that. usably the strongest most opinative of people breaking down like that. well i have this habit of feeling the room. that is usably if a room has a lot of happy people in it i get happy, sad i get sad, i think thats one of the reasons i act the clown all the time, because i like the feel of people being happy around me. anyway all i felt was fear an dispare and it drove me a little off my nut, witch is about as hard as pushing over a house of cards yea but still. one thing i got out of this is that im just not happy being up in my cave. not feeling like i had any means to help gutted me. but like i said everything seems to be back to normal, and i need to plan a trip to get my transcripts from the community college i went too and heald so i can get my but into american river college. if anything i will just start taking refresher courses stuff i can actually put on a resume. and the other hand i will have a place to plug in other than the library i might even meet someone that i can talk to in the flesh, i know strange concept. thats my plan so far, i also started trying to write again. who knows.

anyway it looks like i wont be vanishing from the net *yea* anytime soon, nor from wow *yea?*