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[ravistis]

All day I walk
Wearing a mask
hiding myself when i talk
I feel empty and always ask
from where does it come?

When Im honest to myself
I always seem to cry
Then put how I feel on the shelf
pain grows, and you wish to die

But the pain passes
when I see you smile
when I know youre happy
once in a while

You lit up my day
and you never knew how
and I never could go through with what had to say
I'd be youre friend, just for now.

But when youre gone
The pain comes back
Cause I put the mask on
I want to feel smart, but I know jack

Now that I've gotten used to it
It wants to become my true face
Too bad it wont work for shit
When your eyes shatter it in it's place

But now I realize how stupid I am
thinking that if I forget you ill be fine
Along the way I know it's just a sham
and realize that happiness can't be mine

The mask is cursed and useless
I only needed it to hide from she
but it works fine on all the rest
but your smile still kills me