So....
So,
I went to the doctor on Tuesday for a follow up of some tests I had run. Turns out I have polycystic ovary syndrome. I'm done crying about it, but I figured I should post my thoughts. It's a little bittersweet though becuase I've been trying to figure out whats wrong with me for so long and i finally found a doctor to figure it the fuck out. Mostly bitter though.
I might not ever have kids, or it might just be really stinking hard. I've jjust been really quiet inside and out since I found out. It makes me sad, and still. I'm not dying though, so I have nothing to complain about. Nothing bad has happened, it's just a lot more likely now and that's scary. I could choose to think about this in a positive way, or at least with a positive attitude, but I'm not ready yet. I'm perfectly liking being mopey about it, and digging my heels into depression.
Anyhow, if you want to know more about it there's lots of stuff on the internet about it. I'm going to be all right.
I have 90 minutes left of work now, and I could not be more joyful about that. I need the time to think and rest.
I went to the doctor on Tuesday for a follow up of some tests I had run. Turns out I have polycystic ovary syndrome. I'm done crying about it, but I figured I should post my thoughts. It's a little bittersweet though becuase I've been trying to figure out whats wrong with me for so long and i finally found a doctor to figure it the fuck out. Mostly bitter though.
I might not ever have kids, or it might just be really stinking hard. I've jjust been really quiet inside and out since I found out. It makes me sad, and still. I'm not dying though, so I have nothing to complain about. Nothing bad has happened, it's just a lot more likely now and that's scary. I could choose to think about this in a positive way, or at least with a positive attitude, but I'm not ready yet. I'm perfectly liking being mopey about it, and digging my heels into depression.
Anyhow, if you want to know more about it there's lots of stuff on the internet about it. I'm going to be all right.
I have 90 minutes left of work now, and I could not be more joyful about that. I need the time to think and rest.