May 15, 2005 01:07
god... i don't know what to do...
my darling secret agent lover man is in pain,
he's hurting really really bad...
and there's nothing i can do to make him better.
i can't stand to just sit here doing nothing while he is suffering.
i want to help, i want him to feel better, to be happy...
but there is absolutely NOTHING i can do.
this is hell for me.
i feel like i should be able to fix anything for him
i should be able to make anything negative just disappear...
i feel like i have failed..
i just love him so very much.
he shouldn't ever have to hurt.
i wish i could take his suffering upon myself.
i would gladly take it all.
in the blink of an eye...