robot zombies from outer space?
fuck!
i can't believe i am going to be someone's mother. but i am not so afraid anymore... many a lesser person than i has managed before. (like my parents. heh.) and i am fortunate enough to have such a wonderful man in my life. my fiance, my baby-daddy, my matters...
he's the best thing that's ever happened to me. deciding to stay that fateful wednesday appears to be the wisest decision i have made in the entirety of my pathetic little life. i feel i have a purpose now, a sense of direction...
and more importantly, i feel unconditional love for him and know that i am loved in return.
forgive me for being so rediculously elated right now, but... today is the sonogram! i get to see our baby, hear the heartbeat, learn the gender! oh, i hope matt calls me as soon as he gets out of work to see how things go today! i want to plan for him to come over so we can look at the sono. pix and think about names and... and...
he's really been so incredible! he rubs my back all the time, and he lotions my belly, and talks to the baby! and he got SO giddy when he first felt it kicking! i know he's going to make an immaculate father. i am so very fortunate. i can't ever take this for granted. ever.
i love you, matthew...
thank you for being here,
for meaning something,
for loving me...
you are everything.
everything and more...
(heart-first)
-pow.
i can't believe i am going to be someone's mother. but i am not so afraid anymore... many a lesser person than i has managed before. (like my parents. heh.) and i am fortunate enough to have such a wonderful man in my life. my fiance, my baby-daddy, my matters...
he's the best thing that's ever happened to me. deciding to stay that fateful wednesday appears to be the wisest decision i have made in the entirety of my pathetic little life. i feel i have a purpose now, a sense of direction...
and more importantly, i feel unconditional love for him and know that i am loved in return.
forgive me for being so rediculously elated right now, but... today is the sonogram! i get to see our baby, hear the heartbeat, learn the gender! oh, i hope matt calls me as soon as he gets out of work to see how things go today! i want to plan for him to come over so we can look at the sono. pix and think about names and... and...
he's really been so incredible! he rubs my back all the time, and he lotions my belly, and talks to the baby! and he got SO giddy when he first felt it kicking! i know he's going to make an immaculate father. i am so very fortunate. i can't ever take this for granted. ever.
i love you, matthew...
thank you for being here,
for meaning something,
for loving me...
you are everything.
everything and more...
(heart-first)
-pow.