2 weeks to the day.
I will be home in 2 weeks. 14 days. Too damn long. And all the while, life is testing me. I say, Bring it. I just spent 8 months in the Gulf. Right now, there is nothing that will get in my way from going home. Nothing
On another note. We have finally returned to Japan. We hit Okinawa this morning. Started the offload, and have ourselves a few days off to relax. Minus the standing watch in Radio.
In 4 more days, we will be in Sasebo. From there, it's downhill.
I find myself getting scared recently. The backbone of this Radio Shack is leaving in a few months. We have another main support (and comic relief) of the shop leaving around the same time, if not sooner. So, guess what that means? Yup, someone has to step up and take their place. And guess who gets to do it? Yup. You guessed it.
I don't think I'm ready to handle that kind of pressure. I've never been good under stress, my fuse is extremely short, and my temper is rather violent. I just don't think I'm ready.
I just have to keep telling myself, "I', going home soon. I'm going home soon" And, I just hope that the thought of being with Nikki alone, will get me through all the bullshit I have to face to get to that point.
Goddess be with me, for now more then ever, your patience is so strongly needed.
On another note. We have finally returned to Japan. We hit Okinawa this morning. Started the offload, and have ourselves a few days off to relax. Minus the standing watch in Radio.
In 4 more days, we will be in Sasebo. From there, it's downhill.
I find myself getting scared recently. The backbone of this Radio Shack is leaving in a few months. We have another main support (and comic relief) of the shop leaving around the same time, if not sooner. So, guess what that means? Yup, someone has to step up and take their place. And guess who gets to do it? Yup. You guessed it.
I don't think I'm ready to handle that kind of pressure. I've never been good under stress, my fuse is extremely short, and my temper is rather violent. I just don't think I'm ready.
I just have to keep telling myself, "I', going home soon. I'm going home soon" And, I just hope that the thought of being with Nikki alone, will get me through all the bullshit I have to face to get to that point.
Goddess be with me, for now more then ever, your patience is so strongly needed.