This is your brain. This is your brain exposed to the media...
I've come to the conclusion that I think too god damn much. And given this, I should not allow myself new knowledge with which to drive myself crazy. So no more reading newspapers, no reading articles online, no watching new movies, no romantic movies, no exposure to violence, no talking to anyone and last but definitely not least no human interaction what so ever.
Okay I got the melodrama out of the way early as to boot it out of my system and start out on a better note. I don't think that watching violence is good for me. I have had two separate dreams lately where I have either killed someone or I have been about to be killed. Death is a prominent theme and it is not a comfort to me. I guess I should just take it in the sense that there are parts of myself that I need to kill off and get on with my life. For instance, my fear of being in crowded places by myself with no purpose or reason for being there. That has really got to go. I need new people in my life. I need new human interactions, but this fear is holding me hostage.
Or the fact that I have no motivation. It is nearly impossible to get me to do anything unless it is going to happen right now and it is easy to complete. I have no drive to do anything. And I don't know where it went. I used to be focused, but I think I must have gotten too close to a Dementor or something and they sucked that part of my life away.
I think too much in the past and I don't have the slightest idea how to change my tense.
Okay I got the melodrama out of the way early as to boot it out of my system and start out on a better note. I don't think that watching violence is good for me. I have had two separate dreams lately where I have either killed someone or I have been about to be killed. Death is a prominent theme and it is not a comfort to me. I guess I should just take it in the sense that there are parts of myself that I need to kill off and get on with my life. For instance, my fear of being in crowded places by myself with no purpose or reason for being there. That has really got to go. I need new people in my life. I need new human interactions, but this fear is holding me hostage.
Or the fact that I have no motivation. It is nearly impossible to get me to do anything unless it is going to happen right now and it is easy to complete. I have no drive to do anything. And I don't know where it went. I used to be focused, but I think I must have gotten too close to a Dementor or something and they sucked that part of my life away.
I think too much in the past and I don't have the slightest idea how to change my tense.