UPDATING about DRAMA~!
Ok so this is in
conjunction with APril 29ths journal titled "Well well well" and in
that journal i talk about a girl who totally hurts my feelings because
of 2 reasons... that girl being my (X)-cousin Jessica.If you can X your
cousins... she would be my first! She still to this day doesnt really
understand that i was never MAD i was more hurt. ANYWAYS While this was
happening me and my other cousin KC were pretty close.. hanging out
like every weekend and our boyfriends liked eachother and what not ya
know. I thought shit was back on track. Ya know we are both out of high
school shes about to be 19 we can go to Canada together and just grown
up shit. Well to my suprise she was never really changed with us... I
am still not very important to her--as i see it or feel it. When we
were younger grade/middle/high school I always felt like we should be
able to hang out with the same ppl and go to parties and shit together.
Have a good time because we are the same age and shit. So anyways me
and kasie were hangin out with her friends alot and i liked them all.
Always have. Then they start being gay to her and basically DUMP her..
so who is there to back her up to pick her up and say " they're just
bitches" and shit like that. ME! But I dunno i think that is never good
enough for her to have me in her life. It's like she needs a posse or
something to like make her feel better about herself. I don't do it
good enought for her. Well for her 19th birthday i wanted to take her
to canada get a hotel room whatever.. but because she didnt have any
friends and her boyfriend isn't old enough to go to canada yet she
didnt want to do that! So i was like OK well we can go another time..
WE never made plans or anything so ya know what was I TO DO!? SO its
mine and Alex's 2 year anniversay weekend and we wanna get a hotel room
for the nite or whatever a small celebration for the 2 of us. Well she
calls me like thursday of that week and is like "wanna go to canada?"
I'm like ya know what me and Alex are celebrating our 2 years.. Shes
like "OK". That was the end of it. plus her boyfriends graduation
ceremony was that weekend so i was like OK? Well I talked to her to
tell her that my mom asked why she wasnt go with me and my manager to
canada((that was my way of getting out of the house for the nite)) and
she agrees to stick to it or whatever. Then at like midnight my phone
starts like beeping --i have a message. I listen.. Its Kasie
"WOOOOOOOOOOOO YAH WE ARE GOIN TO CANADA...**CANT UNDERSTAND THIS
PART**... WOOO WITH OUT YOU" Ya know what that message was just so NOT
necessary. Was she mad that i didnt wanna go? Or that i was with my
boyfriend? i dunno.. but that message not only pissed me off but it
hurt my feelings. ITs like she was trying to stick it in my face that
she was going to canada...WITHOUT ME! Ya know i really could careless
that she goes to canada without me... but dont say shit like that!
WHATEVER! yah im like upset again about it now. ANYWAYS... so i stopped
calling her for like a week or so... then she decides to call me GOD
KNOWS WHY... and I do to.. Not be like "hey whats up cuz?" but because
her car broke down and needed a ride. THANKS TO YOU TOO BABE!! Whatever
i didnt answer--i was pissed and so done... Then she calls me like a
week or somethin later... i didnt answer... then she calls the
house...still did NOT answer. SHOULD I HAVE? Nah! Well she obviously
went online and seen that my away message said "cleanin my room"
---> obviously i was home! BUT I DIDNT ANSWER! SO she leaves me a
message "THANKS FOR NEVER CALLING ME BACK!" So when i eventually went
to check my messages i sent her one that was equally bitchy--"ANYTIME!"
fuck her-- i obviously am not answering for a reason and i'm obviously
not calling you back for a reason.
Why? Because I dont need that shit. I dont need ppl in my life --FAMILY OR NOT-- that treat me the way those 2 girls have. ESPECIALLY when they are 2 girls that i would do just about anything for. I mean Jessica used to throw it in my face that i dont have friends anymore... the thing is not that i dont have friends... its that i dont have friend and FAMILY like that. I dont need fake ppl...i dont need ppl in my life that only want me when its convient for them and that is the bottom line! Ya know what i realized in the last year that i have been out of HS who my real friends are and who I WANT IN MY LIFE!
KATIE PEE-- is number one friend-- i know shes there without having to be up her ass every day to prove that we are friends.
ANNIE--IS just a genuiwenly great person and friend... she called me still when no one else was! This past weekend i went to canada with Kellie--i think me and her could be closer but like i said--i shouldn't have to be up these peoples asses for them to realize we are friends... you can call me too ya know? And yah i will call you--lol Kel now that i have ur number! and your not hanging out with those 2 nasty girls anymore right?? I sure hope not they are lowlifes! and Ashleigh and i weren't like really close in hs but i mean we hung out every once n a while... and now i can see the summer with her will be really fun! CANADA!!! LOL =)
anyways im really tired now from writing all of this... so I am gunna go shower and get ready for work tonight at THE RUSSE-as Alex calls it!lol But i call it Charlottes!
GO PISTONS... GAME 7 TONIGHT! WE CAN DO IT
Why? Because I dont need that shit. I dont need ppl in my life --FAMILY OR NOT-- that treat me the way those 2 girls have. ESPECIALLY when they are 2 girls that i would do just about anything for. I mean Jessica used to throw it in my face that i dont have friends anymore... the thing is not that i dont have friends... its that i dont have friend and FAMILY like that. I dont need fake ppl...i dont need ppl in my life that only want me when its convient for them and that is the bottom line! Ya know what i realized in the last year that i have been out of HS who my real friends are and who I WANT IN MY LIFE!
KATIE PEE-- is number one friend-- i know shes there without having to be up her ass every day to prove that we are friends.
ANNIE--IS just a genuiwenly great person and friend... she called me still when no one else was! This past weekend i went to canada with Kellie--i think me and her could be closer but like i said--i shouldn't have to be up these peoples asses for them to realize we are friends... you can call me too ya know? And yah i will call you--lol Kel now that i have ur number! and your not hanging out with those 2 nasty girls anymore right?? I sure hope not they are lowlifes! and Ashleigh and i weren't like really close in hs but i mean we hung out every once n a while... and now i can see the summer with her will be really fun! CANADA!!! LOL =)
anyways im really tired now from writing all of this... so I am gunna go shower and get ready for work tonight at THE RUSSE-as Alex calls it!lol But i call it Charlottes!
GO PISTONS... GAME 7 TONIGHT! WE CAN DO IT