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It’s going to be so nice when the holiday season is finally over. I honestly don’t know how much more of it I can take at this point before I ram someone’s head through a wall. People are seriously beginning to try my patience at this point, and everyone seems to be out to try and pull a fast one on us day to day. I just want to stress to be able to go away so I can finish up my weight loss without having outside bits of stress on me. I have not been able to lose much of anything this month, and I had a goal I wanted to reach by the end of the year. The way things are looking, I’m likely not going to be able to reach that goal at all. I had really hoped to be able to reach 215 by the end of 2011, and I’m sitting between 218 and 219 almost every day. It’s like my body doesn’t want to budge from that spot.
The more and more I hang out with my friends, the heavier and heavier I feel. I feel so uncomfortable with the body I have, because I want so badly to be smaller like them. Because I know I’m able to work towards a goal that would bring me closer to their sizes. I need to stop being so lazy with working out, that maybe I would be able to get more done. 2012 is going to be that year. I accomplished a lot during 2011 as far as my weight loss went. I started off in the high 290s, and I’m now sitting within 20 pounds of 200. 80 pounds in just about a year is a huge thing to do. While I’m happy with that, I’m still not at the point where I’m happy with my own body. I went from a staggering size 22, down to a size 12/13 in pants. I wore an XXL in men’s shirts, and I’m now able to fit into many size Large shirts. Physically, I feel the best I have in a long time, and I’m the lightest I’ve been since I was in high school. People I haven’t seen in a while keep running into me and telling me they think I look great. However, this is just something I still haven’t been able to accept. I know I can look better. I know I have more weight to lose. Thing is, I feel like it’s becoming an obsession. I’m glad to have found something I’ve been able to keep motivated with, as I tend to lose motivation quickly with almost anything I do.
It’s been decided. I’m going to just flat out set my final goal of 175. I have 43 more pounds to lose (we’ll just say 45 for ease of math.) June 30, exactly 6 months from today, is my set goal date. That gives me 24 weeks to lose the last of the weight. I need to start being more strict about things from here on out. If I expect to be able to reach my goals, I need to actually get up and do something about it. Let 2012 be the year I am different. The year I become the person I want to be.
The more and more I hang out with my friends, the heavier and heavier I feel. I feel so uncomfortable with the body I have, because I want so badly to be smaller like them. Because I know I’m able to work towards a goal that would bring me closer to their sizes. I need to stop being so lazy with working out, that maybe I would be able to get more done. 2012 is going to be that year. I accomplished a lot during 2011 as far as my weight loss went. I started off in the high 290s, and I’m now sitting within 20 pounds of 200. 80 pounds in just about a year is a huge thing to do. While I’m happy with that, I’m still not at the point where I’m happy with my own body. I went from a staggering size 22, down to a size 12/13 in pants. I wore an XXL in men’s shirts, and I’m now able to fit into many size Large shirts. Physically, I feel the best I have in a long time, and I’m the lightest I’ve been since I was in high school. People I haven’t seen in a while keep running into me and telling me they think I look great. However, this is just something I still haven’t been able to accept. I know I can look better. I know I have more weight to lose. Thing is, I feel like it’s becoming an obsession. I’m glad to have found something I’ve been able to keep motivated with, as I tend to lose motivation quickly with almost anything I do.
It’s been decided. I’m going to just flat out set my final goal of 175. I have 43 more pounds to lose (we’ll just say 45 for ease of math.) June 30, exactly 6 months from today, is my set goal date. That gives me 24 weeks to lose the last of the weight. I need to start being more strict about things from here on out. If I expect to be able to reach my goals, I need to actually get up and do something about it. Let 2012 be the year I am different. The year I become the person I want to be.