.maby hawaii wasent such a bad idea
the truth behind my myspace whoreness...the past few days i got ...quite a few more people on my list.110...allmost all girls..all in hopes someone would want to chill..talk...anything..not necc. that i wanted to hook up with one...but just needed to get a females attn. a guys just isint the same... all of it just to cover up all this pain. my best friend bryan...and my bestest friend jessi hooked up...not that thats a problem ... but i fear the day i am asked to take sides. and i miss soy...like its pathatic...like i realize it was bs...im a fucking attention whore..(jessi rubbed off on me ha) so feeling like the only way i could get soy to stop..i just, forced her out...and everytime she calls...it feels so good inside, at first....then a minute into it ... i feel like just ... falling asleep forever....wish it were that easy....brian was saposed to get a shit ton of the money back from the IRS that totally didnt work out it fuckin sucks. cause its all like ...bringin me down too...my job sucks ass ... im not getting anywhere in life...i cant hide myself in this crap. ive lost some true friends...i feel like i used them now...i just want a way out!!!!