fuck
Fuck LJ, the story behind the benson.
im sorry everyone, well everyone who still reads this bull. i have just realized how masking all my drama and putting down b.s. has gotten old. all you people think you know me, the real benson. but you doint. and unless you dig. you prob. never will...shit you all thought D and I were close. hell i finally realized how far i didnt let him in, when he tried lectuing me. i was better arguing w/ a brick wall. if you people really care, and really want to know how im doing, fucking call me, instant message me, just talk to me instead of realying on this stupid shit to assume or "figure out" how im doing.
now you ask. what is the point of this? cause im tired of bs friendships. you know who was there when soy and I broke up? shaun and jessi!! i called her cell to see if she was asleep, to talkto her, shaun said she was...and i hung up...he called me back. tried to relate and make me feel better...then offerd to come pick me up. now i realize that i didnt call any of u. and its not youre fault...but, the fact is is that there was no one else to call. the only ppl who are close are jessi and soy, remotely close would be nick, kristy, hugh, heather, and kevin. if i didnt mention youre name...its cause we dont keep in enough contact...or any at all.
plase if you want to know how im doing or atleast just chat plz call...i do want to call all of you true friends
love
-benson-
im sorry everyone, well everyone who still reads this bull. i have just realized how masking all my drama and putting down b.s. has gotten old. all you people think you know me, the real benson. but you doint. and unless you dig. you prob. never will...shit you all thought D and I were close. hell i finally realized how far i didnt let him in, when he tried lectuing me. i was better arguing w/ a brick wall. if you people really care, and really want to know how im doing, fucking call me, instant message me, just talk to me instead of realying on this stupid shit to assume or "figure out" how im doing.
now you ask. what is the point of this? cause im tired of bs friendships. you know who was there when soy and I broke up? shaun and jessi!! i called her cell to see if she was asleep, to talkto her, shaun said she was...and i hung up...he called me back. tried to relate and make me feel better...then offerd to come pick me up. now i realize that i didnt call any of u. and its not youre fault...but, the fact is is that there was no one else to call. the only ppl who are close are jessi and soy, remotely close would be nick, kristy, hugh, heather, and kevin. if i didnt mention youre name...its cause we dont keep in enough contact...or any at all.
plase if you want to know how im doing or atleast just chat plz call...i do want to call all of you true friends
love
-benson-