Times have changed.
The tides have changed..... Everything is different now. Im scared....... I have a new Girlfriend whom i love to death... Im happy. but im just so scared. The apt which was what held me together . is now gone. that group of friends is now gone. the drug life, the club scene. where i finnaly found happyness. is now gone.But new things have arrisen. Kat the love of my life. a club kid yes. done drugs yes. gave up taking pain pills for me. gave up alot for me. the best thing in my life now is her. i have only a few true friends left. the others have all abondened me. Update of me being arrested. Court dated forwarded to Feb. 17th. Still scared. being kicked out of the house as soon as all of the court stuff is over. James is now living with my cusen. Jerry... well we dont know what happened to him.. i feel as though he's gone for a long time wheather he ran or locked up i cannot say. but i fear the worse. Ashley is now my coworker. and thats not cool. today i had a lashback to the first time i rolled. Of what a great night that was. How did i get to this. TOnight kat gave me an envelope of all of her letters to and from old Boyfriends. she wants to forget all of that and start a new life with me. start over. clean. a clean start. with me of all people. im so scared. i do not think i can take being hurt again. i fear the worse if this does not last. i seee that she cares more about me and for me then any girl, anyone ever has. i love her. i dont know. these are the things in the mind of neal.... Can anyone help.... Anyone....... where have all of the good times gone. clubs... theater..... hanging out at highland..... the times change. about 2-3 months ago we all started to notice that a BIG change of the tides was in effect and its happened. and im scared.... im happy but im scared. i just want to go back to the club nights where the nights never seemed to end.
Ive been sober for 5 weeks. this is getting hard. i miss it..... the pure love of everything. Being taken to a place like no other. being...... free...
Im lost
I need an escape..
Help?
Ive been sober for 5 weeks. this is getting hard. i miss it..... the pure love of everything. Being taken to a place like no other. being...... free...
Im lost
I need an escape..
Help?