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i am considering reviving my lj.. i need someplace to write. journaling/blogging is one thing that facebook just doesn't do. maybe they should. oi.
but, there are maybe 3 people who read this who are actual physical friends. 4, maybe? maybe 1 or 2 that i either haven't me in person yet or have met only briefly. which leaves me to wonder,.. who am i writing to or for? of all people, i'd rather my friends read this stuff, as opposed to people i don't know or don't know well. but if my friends aren't on here, well then..
my brain though, my brain wants to write sometimes. needs an outlet.
i do have another separate family-safe blog, which also never gets updated. again, if there's only 3 people reading it, why bother? life sure would be easier if my friend blog and my family blog could be one and the same (then i'd have maybe 6 readers! whoopee!). but, no such luck. as much as i wish i could just be myself and let everyone else deal with their own issues, ha, things are not really that simple. my life is just not family-safe.
so. pfft. i'm stuck in this virtual identity crisis, feeling like i can tell some people some things, and others other things, but not everyone everything. which feels really ridiculous, considering i'm getting dangerously close to 40. i shouldn't have to protect everyone else's sensitivities, should i? sigh.
and i'm fairly sure i've written this same exact post more than once too, more or less.
a recurring theme..
but, there are maybe 3 people who read this who are actual physical friends. 4, maybe? maybe 1 or 2 that i either haven't me in person yet or have met only briefly. which leaves me to wonder,.. who am i writing to or for? of all people, i'd rather my friends read this stuff, as opposed to people i don't know or don't know well. but if my friends aren't on here, well then..
my brain though, my brain wants to write sometimes. needs an outlet.
i do have another separate family-safe blog, which also never gets updated. again, if there's only 3 people reading it, why bother? life sure would be easier if my friend blog and my family blog could be one and the same (then i'd have maybe 6 readers! whoopee!). but, no such luck. as much as i wish i could just be myself and let everyone else deal with their own issues, ha, things are not really that simple. my life is just not family-safe.
so. pfft. i'm stuck in this virtual identity crisis, feeling like i can tell some people some things, and others other things, but not everyone everything. which feels really ridiculous, considering i'm getting dangerously close to 40. i shouldn't have to protect everyone else's sensitivities, should i? sigh.
and i'm fairly sure i've written this same exact post more than once too, more or less.
a recurring theme..