Blargh.
Alrighty. Things have been happening. Baaad things. *sheep*
First...I'd like to rant about my relationship. I love my boyfriend more than anything. But, honestly...I'm wondering if he still feels the same?
a. About a month ago, JROTC had field day. First we begin with drill, then the ceremony, then lunch, and finally field games. Sounds awesome, right? It was! One cool aspect was JROTC was let go during 5th pd - my boyfriend's lunch. =D I was so so so anxious to see him after sitting there for two hours. I got there, and him and his friends played cards for the WHOLE time. Without me, only because the game they were playing didn't look very fun. So, I sat there for half an hour. I could've sat with my friends and had some attention or fun? =/
b. He ignored me. Last Tuesday. I walked up to him in the morning, as I usually do. But I was sitting with my friend Chelsea before, because I hardly get to talk to her. But I stood there for 5 minutes waiting for him to say hi. Until the bell rang, he didn't say a word. He just sat there and read a magazine. It really did kill me a little inside. In fact, I'm still working on getting over it. And it's been a week. It's kind of hard not using the excuse of, "well, he did ignore you..."
c. There was also the time where we talking on the phone. And there wasn't a real good conversation going on, so I decided to tell him what had been bothering me a lot about one my friends doing drugs, smoking, and having sex. Of course it would bother me, right? I care A LOT about my friends, and their well-being. I want them to be as ahppy as possible, and I know she's going to regret doing this. So, I started telling him...while I was in mid-sentence he says, "Do you really need to tell me this?" That hurt me the most, even now. He sounded so cold, like he could care less. This was something that worried me, and he didn't care? This isn't some little gossip, I try not to do that. This was serious. *sigh*
d. Then this Memorial Day. I hadn't gotten to talk to him the night before because his phone died, so he IMed me in the morning. After about 5 minutes he says his friend wants him to play Halo with him. So, I say ok. Thinking this is only going to take 2 or 3 hours. He doesn't talk to me until 9pm at night. After I seriously needed him during the day. I felt so stupid waiting for him to come back on and talk to me. But really, one of my best friends just used my myself and my family, and that made me feel horrible...
e. Finally, today. He gets to leave his class during my lunch period because his class is mostly full of graduated seniors. So, he gets to hang out with me during my lunch. I think this is totally awesome! I was looking forward to it all day. I waiting for than 3/4 of the period for him to come. Really now? He was playing computer games. Avoidance much?
So, I'm just wondering what's going on. Because I'm doing the best I can to get over these things. I guess I'm just tired of waiting all the time.
First...I'd like to rant about my relationship. I love my boyfriend more than anything. But, honestly...I'm wondering if he still feels the same?
a. About a month ago, JROTC had field day. First we begin with drill, then the ceremony, then lunch, and finally field games. Sounds awesome, right? It was! One cool aspect was JROTC was let go during 5th pd - my boyfriend's lunch. =D I was so so so anxious to see him after sitting there for two hours. I got there, and him and his friends played cards for the WHOLE time. Without me, only because the game they were playing didn't look very fun. So, I sat there for half an hour. I could've sat with my friends and had some attention or fun? =/
b. He ignored me. Last Tuesday. I walked up to him in the morning, as I usually do. But I was sitting with my friend Chelsea before, because I hardly get to talk to her. But I stood there for 5 minutes waiting for him to say hi. Until the bell rang, he didn't say a word. He just sat there and read a magazine. It really did kill me a little inside. In fact, I'm still working on getting over it. And it's been a week. It's kind of hard not using the excuse of, "well, he did ignore you..."
c. There was also the time where we talking on the phone. And there wasn't a real good conversation going on, so I decided to tell him what had been bothering me a lot about one my friends doing drugs, smoking, and having sex. Of course it would bother me, right? I care A LOT about my friends, and their well-being. I want them to be as ahppy as possible, and I know she's going to regret doing this. So, I started telling him...while I was in mid-sentence he says, "Do you really need to tell me this?" That hurt me the most, even now. He sounded so cold, like he could care less. This was something that worried me, and he didn't care? This isn't some little gossip, I try not to do that. This was serious. *sigh*
d. Then this Memorial Day. I hadn't gotten to talk to him the night before because his phone died, so he IMed me in the morning. After about 5 minutes he says his friend wants him to play Halo with him. So, I say ok. Thinking this is only going to take 2 or 3 hours. He doesn't talk to me until 9pm at night. After I seriously needed him during the day. I felt so stupid waiting for him to come back on and talk to me. But really, one of my best friends just used my myself and my family, and that made me feel horrible...
e. Finally, today. He gets to leave his class during my lunch period because his class is mostly full of graduated seniors. So, he gets to hang out with me during my lunch. I think this is totally awesome! I was looking forward to it all day. I waiting for than 3/4 of the period for him to come. Really now? He was playing computer games. Avoidance much?
So, I'm just wondering what's going on. Because I'm doing the best I can to get over these things. I guess I'm just tired of waiting all the time.