I feel sick

[raventhecrow]

All right so Ive been home and I feel like shit. Ive been sleeping in until fucking noon and it hurts my head and my bones... not to mention my parents riding up my ass.. I know I know Im being stupid for not getting my liscence already, I SWEAR Im gonna do it next week because Jamie will be in Iowa at his wrestling camp for a week and we shall be home from this weekends Bass Lake trip and everything... and after I get my liscence, I can get a car, my dad is gonna buy me one... now., this would help out A LOT! Okay, so, not only have I been feeling like bum because of that but Jamie and I have been arguing a little.. mostly because of the things happening around us, not us ourselves. He needs a car and a job and so do I. We are struggling... I guess.. My mom thinks Im smothering him and stalking him and being too much of a high maintenence princess.. which might be, because Jamie spoils me like a princess and I guess Ive just become a fucking brat. I need to fucking focus on myslef.. so my mom says and I agree but I feel like shit because now all of this stress has become my fault... the only good thing is Jamie gave me a promise ring (it looks like a renaissance ring) and its all pretty but every time we fight I feel like I dont deserve the ring... I need help.. Im serious, I feel so depressed right now, and I did it to myself... I feel bad for Jamie the most because all he wants to do is make me happy and if he cant make me happy he tells me that he feels like a failure.... rrrrmmm...

I hate life
I hate myself at the moment
There isnt any music im in the mood to listen to, I have a headache, Im hungry and fat...

fuck it. byez