Looooong Busy Day!
Massage to locked up right shoulder? Check. Did it actually work? Yes. 30 mins for $40 and the girl did an awesome job. Going to need regular treatment for a few months probably but affordable and oh so good.
Mother's B'day present acquired? Yes, thank fuck. And she even liked it.
Lunch with brother? Definitely check. Very tasty.
Cooked dinner for Mum's b'day? Done. Thank christ it's done and eaten and now I can collapse into bed. It went into the oven and I promptly fell asleep.
I'm getting better, definitely stronger and healthier but my energy levels are still a disaster. *sigh* And somehow I need to get better from here so I can go out and get a job. Yeah, I just, not feeling very confident in that department right now. Feeling mentally confident. I can think straight and have the mental agility back that I'm used to, and can multitask again instead of being a zombie. And NO seizures though I did kinda twitch a lot before I fell asleep after food went into oven. So fucking exhausted.
*frustrated sounds* There is so much YAH going on and I don't want to complain cause it's seriously awesome amounts of YAH but at the same time I'm feeling the pressure to get back out and start working and have a life again. And yet after 1/2 a day out of the house I start to get seriously fatigued. After a full day I'm useless and spend the entire next day in bed. If by some blessing I manage two days in a row I'm in bed the rest of the week. It's fucking insane. I know I just need to stop pushing so hard and allow things to come back in their own time.But honestly, my patience is all used up. Almost 2 fucking years of this...*sigh* I'm over tired and need to go sleep now or I'm just going to sit here feeling sorry for myself and cry.
Will work on fic tomorrow. Hopefully I can get two chapters written before I'm ready to actually send them anywhere.
*squishes the world*
*loves*
Sorry for the mopey rant.
Mother's B'day present acquired? Yes, thank fuck. And she even liked it.
Lunch with brother? Definitely check. Very tasty.
Cooked dinner for Mum's b'day? Done. Thank christ it's done and eaten and now I can collapse into bed. It went into the oven and I promptly fell asleep.
I'm getting better, definitely stronger and healthier but my energy levels are still a disaster. *sigh* And somehow I need to get better from here so I can go out and get a job. Yeah, I just, not feeling very confident in that department right now. Feeling mentally confident. I can think straight and have the mental agility back that I'm used to, and can multitask again instead of being a zombie. And NO seizures though I did kinda twitch a lot before I fell asleep after food went into oven. So fucking exhausted.
*frustrated sounds* There is so much YAH going on and I don't want to complain cause it's seriously awesome amounts of YAH but at the same time I'm feeling the pressure to get back out and start working and have a life again. And yet after 1/2 a day out of the house I start to get seriously fatigued. After a full day I'm useless and spend the entire next day in bed. If by some blessing I manage two days in a row I'm in bed the rest of the week. It's fucking insane. I know I just need to stop pushing so hard and allow things to come back in their own time.But honestly, my patience is all used up. Almost 2 fucking years of this...*sigh* I'm over tired and need to go sleep now or I'm just going to sit here feeling sorry for myself and cry.
Will work on fic tomorrow. Hopefully I can get two chapters written before I'm ready to actually send them anywhere.
*squishes the world*
*loves*
Sorry for the mopey rant.