last days
this is the thing. i used to be different. was i more brave or less brave? i have learned so much about myself in the last year. i have learned more than i ever considered learning. about myself. about nothing else, but about myself.
my stomach hurts pretty bad today. triumph. defeat. triumph. defeat. triumph. it was the chocolate chip wasn't it?
speaking in code. we riddle and rhyme. to get by.
answer the phone. say hello.
good bye.
my g-d, i feel old. it's not that. it's not true. i don't feel old. i feel disappointed by the years. but it's okay. it's just something. it's nothing.
it's that moment, where you sigh outwardly, close your eyes, open the door and smile. i only keep it together for the sake of the others. for the fate of the world. for the disappointment of the years.
for you. for me.
i'm not a negative person, & i never was. anxiety is my problem. and energy. my sponge-like metaphysical state. someone massage my back. someone heal my energy. someone let go. breathe deep. lie down. sit up. walk towards. thoughts clear. move on.
move on.
my stomach hurts pretty bad today. triumph. defeat. triumph. defeat. triumph. it was the chocolate chip wasn't it?
speaking in code. we riddle and rhyme. to get by.
answer the phone. say hello.
good bye.
my g-d, i feel old. it's not that. it's not true. i don't feel old. i feel disappointed by the years. but it's okay. it's just something. it's nothing.
it's that moment, where you sigh outwardly, close your eyes, open the door and smile. i only keep it together for the sake of the others. for the fate of the world. for the disappointment of the years.
for you. for me.
i'm not a negative person, & i never was. anxiety is my problem. and energy. my sponge-like metaphysical state. someone massage my back. someone heal my energy. someone let go. breathe deep. lie down. sit up. walk towards. thoughts clear. move on.
move on.