Adventure at Hills of Brosarp
I traveled sunday morning to the Hills of Brosarp. I checked in right away then started to walk towards the woods. The wheather was wonderful, not too cold, sunny. I walked on the hills, and through the woods all day, I drew alot, and painted a few paintings. I felt a bit restless and moody in the beginning, but after a few hours it was gone, I was more relaxed, more intune with nature and surroundings. At the sunset and moon that wasnt visuable began to rise I did some rituals, meditated danced around chanting The Ladies names. After that I got an urge to kundalini yoga. It was very cool doing it out in the woods. I meditated a bit. Then I danced around again, It felt like some of Them danced with me. Then I ate some apple pie that offered and toasted a brew to with Them. I was asked to talk a walk in the dark before going back to the hotell. I thougth I kept in mind those bigger roads, in the woods but must have lost track of them. So walked in circles for hours, until was so tired and couldnt walk any further, I just seemed to be more and more lost. That was the challenge to be lost in the woods at night. I had feared it could happen, so I hadnt planned to be out in the night, but fter the rituals with danicing and yoga It seemed alright to take a walk with Her. It was so silent and windy, I couldnt feel, hear or sense The Ladies at all, I felt panicy after a few hours and wanted to talk to someone so I called Jen. It was dumb I really didnt want her or anyone to worry about me. If I ruined something I am sorry for that. I really need to be more independent and trust The Goddesses more, that They do take care of me. Dont walk in foregin places without maps and compass in after dark. After talking to Jen I tried to sleep, I think slept a bit, woke up when the cops called. They wondered if I needed help, where I was and said they where gonna pick me up. So I stood there waiting, i started to feel better, they dark woods didnt feel so scary. I was fascinatiing that it took two hours for the cops to find, like She didnt want me to be found. I said serveral times to the cops that I was fine, i could make it out there, but they insisted in coming and get me. They drove me to the hotell. It was nice lay down in a warm bed. I dreamed that She was carrying me around.... Sweet but I gotta wonder why I didnt had those lovely dreams outside? Out there I could just think dark thoughts about Her, why this was happening, what had I done to deserve this.... I didnt get the picture that it was to make me stronger, that it would help me. It feels like something has changed, but it is too soon to say. I did face my fears, that is probably why I didnt hear much cause it wasnt just a day of fun in the woods it was working through layers of fears as well. I am happy I went to Hills of Brosarp, but should had been more prepared, having maps and compass, realizing that She may make it very hard for me to get back to the hotel, since I was facing my fears. I was alone in the woods, later at night it wasnt so bad, I just wanted to sleep.
So I am home now, my legs hurts a bit after walking so much, bit I will exercise much every week, strengthen my body. The city seem so ugly and noisy after being almost 2 days in the woods. I sure will go to the woods and other nature places- where everything grows wild and free. Where humans are guests and visitor not someone who is destroying, polluting, cutting down trees. If I could I would move to the woods, that can be hard cause that is expensive with buying house. The thing I can do is to make it a priority to travel more. I will learn a bout astronomy and invest in a small tent, windsheel before walking in the woods when the daylight is gone. I really love walking, drawing painting, dancing , meditate, do rituals in the woods. I wish I could do that all the time.
So I am home now, my legs hurts a bit after walking so much, bit I will exercise much every week, strengthen my body. The city seem so ugly and noisy after being almost 2 days in the woods. I sure will go to the woods and other nature places- where everything grows wild and free. Where humans are guests and visitor not someone who is destroying, polluting, cutting down trees. If I could I would move to the woods, that can be hard cause that is expensive with buying house. The thing I can do is to make it a priority to travel more. I will learn a bout astronomy and invest in a small tent, windsheel before walking in the woods when the daylight is gone. I really love walking, drawing painting, dancing , meditate, do rituals in the woods. I wish I could do that all the time.