Channelled art once again
Now I am back home. My mum came home today from the funeral of my grandma. It feels wonderful to be home. It is often a very tensed energy at my mums house. So it is indeed stressful for me to be there for serveral days. I managed to use the time well. At wednesday I took the requested walk with Lugh. Michael came as well, I walked around on the countryside for hours. Felt surrounded by Them both. After that I thanked for the walk and that I They were There with me, and that I got too see Michael again. After I went to a store bought all kinds of sweets and such. Started to binging and draw dragons. Very soon it changed and I got flashbacks, I started to draw that, I channelled the pain, the traumas. It was like it came more and more all I had to do was to hold the sketchpens. I cried a bit as well. suddenly I felt The Morrigans presence, it was like She helped me channel the pain and draw, kept me sane. When I was done She said I She liked my drawings and we should contínue this tomorrow and as often as needed, I got so happy of Her words that I said "Thanks my beloved, instead of Thank You My Queen" I changed it right away it wasnt my intention to be disrespectful, She wasnt offended. The next few days i had much pain and panic, I could barely work. But I kept doing it working, playing cuddling Pontus, drawing.
I will keep working on my channelled art, I am grateful that I can express my feelings, trauma with art(it is seem to be blocking me stopping me from get ride of the anxiety panic depression for good) Hopefully my art and Kundalini Yoga will clear it all up. My art do seem to be more passionate more painful, and angry. I am very grateful that The Morrigan wanted to help with it. I feel bad that I am late to my Lughnassadh ritual, I will do it tomorrow, I got no possibility to do it this weekend, I did pray and meditate but it was very hard to focus there. I do got a feeling that it is alright, that I do it tomorrow.
I will keep working on my channelled art, I am grateful that I can express my feelings, trauma with art(it is seem to be blocking me stopping me from get ride of the anxiety panic depression for good) Hopefully my art and Kundalini Yoga will clear it all up. My art do seem to be more passionate more painful, and angry. I am very grateful that The Morrigan wanted to help with it. I feel bad that I am late to my Lughnassadh ritual, I will do it tomorrow, I got no possibility to do it this weekend, I did pray and meditate but it was very hard to focus there. I do got a feeling that it is alright, that I do it tomorrow.