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I have not the time to write for much long time but tonight I feel it is what I will do to find the relax time yes. Charles come to see our baby tonight and it always make me much lonely woman when I see him. He has his hair long and wavy way it was when I first meet him and he is much pretty man and I still love him even when I try to say I do not. He bring his son with him and he is pretty boy too yes with little short hair than his father but still long enough to look much good and he has the dark eye like his father and he has nice face but sad it seem to me. He has little baby so cute he is I want to squeeze him yes. I hold him and it make me want another baby to hold. I tell Charles this and he cock the eyebrow at me and say do not look at him and we all laugh. His son say he is too old to make baby and Charles cock eyebrow at him and tell him to think again smart ass boy. haha We have much fun when we laugh and talk and it is good to have Charles here with me again for little time. His son he is called Lil CJ and I think this it is much cute and my baby loves her big brother and I think by look on his face that he love her too yes. They go and sit in living room and talk much while Charles and I talk in kitchen and my baby she hold her little nephew and she look so proud. When they leave, she tell me she want baby too and I tell her she must wait for man to marry her not like much young girl do who have baby and not have the marry part no. I tell her she has much time to have baby and we will enjoy this tiny one that Lil CJ has and she seem much happy with that. Lil CJ tell us that he will let us babysit sometime and my baby giggle and jump up and down. I tell her she will do this until she have to change diaper with dirty butt and she giggle much still.
I go to store and want new music and I find CD by Loretta Lynn and I have not listen to her so I buy it. I come home and my baby and I sit and listen and we think this woman she sing much sad song yes. My baby and I sing to her music and I have to explain much to my baby about what the word they mean in some song. My baby is old enough to know of much thing of sex so it is much easy now to talk to her than when she was little little girl yes.
I hear this song and it remind me of me and Charles. I was 15 when I meet Charles and have not no idea of losing virgin thing but it take Charles few hour to change my mind yes. He look like hero from romance novel and I can not find way to say no to such pretty man. I was sad and happy girl much and both that night but I know I love him and I also know he do not mean sweet word he say to me when he make love for they are word man like him say to all woman I think now that I have little more of wise way to me yes. We make the love for nine night it is straight and then he tell me next day after this that he do not want to see me more and he make me have much red and angry face for I have give him all I have and he just want to walk away yes like it not happen. That is why I say I am pregnant next week and I know this it was wrong for I was not and I try much hard to get with baby after he marry me but it take two month before I know I am and my baby she is born ten month after we marry and Charles and all people know I lie and they have much angry face with me but I do what I think I should for Charles take my virgin way from me and I think I have right for him to marry me yes and I still do. I do not regret what I do for I have my baby for it and it is much wonderful thing to have her yes.
I have much thought tonight but I am sleepy woman and must make it to bed. I will post this song I think is mine and Charles. I let Charles listen to it and he just raise his eyebrow and shake his head and call me drama queen. haha I am not drama queen. I just think this song it has word to say how it is with Charles and me yes.
Before you first made love to me
You called me, your wife-to-be
And after that, I saw the devil in your eyes
With your sweet smooth talkin' ways
You turned a flame into a blaze
The night I let you hang my wings upon your horns
Don't tell me that I'm no saint
I'm the first to know I ain't
There's a little thing called love
And that's what changed me
From an innocent country girl
To a woman of the world
The night I let you hang my wings upon your horns
You hung my wings upon your horns
And turned my halo into thorns
And turned me into a woman I can't stand
You're the first to ever make me
Fall in love and then not take me
The night I let you hang my wings upon your horns
You hung my wings upon your horns
And turned my halo into thorns
And turned me into a woman I can't stand
You're the first to ever make me
Fall in love and then not take me
The night I let you hang my wings upon your horns
I go to store and want new music and I find CD by Loretta Lynn and I have not listen to her so I buy it. I come home and my baby and I sit and listen and we think this woman she sing much sad song yes. My baby and I sing to her music and I have to explain much to my baby about what the word they mean in some song. My baby is old enough to know of much thing of sex so it is much easy now to talk to her than when she was little little girl yes.
I hear this song and it remind me of me and Charles. I was 15 when I meet Charles and have not no idea of losing virgin thing but it take Charles few hour to change my mind yes. He look like hero from romance novel and I can not find way to say no to such pretty man. I was sad and happy girl much and both that night but I know I love him and I also know he do not mean sweet word he say to me when he make love for they are word man like him say to all woman I think now that I have little more of wise way to me yes. We make the love for nine night it is straight and then he tell me next day after this that he do not want to see me more and he make me have much red and angry face for I have give him all I have and he just want to walk away yes like it not happen. That is why I say I am pregnant next week and I know this it was wrong for I was not and I try much hard to get with baby after he marry me but it take two month before I know I am and my baby she is born ten month after we marry and Charles and all people know I lie and they have much angry face with me but I do what I think I should for Charles take my virgin way from me and I think I have right for him to marry me yes and I still do. I do not regret what I do for I have my baby for it and it is much wonderful thing to have her yes.
I have much thought tonight but I am sleepy woman and must make it to bed. I will post this song I think is mine and Charles. I let Charles listen to it and he just raise his eyebrow and shake his head and call me drama queen. haha I am not drama queen. I just think this song it has word to say how it is with Charles and me yes.
Before you first made love to me
You called me, your wife-to-be
And after that, I saw the devil in your eyes
With your sweet smooth talkin' ways
You turned a flame into a blaze
The night I let you hang my wings upon your horns
Don't tell me that I'm no saint
I'm the first to know I ain't
There's a little thing called love
And that's what changed me
From an innocent country girl
To a woman of the world
The night I let you hang my wings upon your horns
You hung my wings upon your horns
And turned my halo into thorns
And turned me into a woman I can't stand
You're the first to ever make me
Fall in love and then not take me
The night I let you hang my wings upon your horns
You hung my wings upon your horns
And turned my halo into thorns
And turned me into a woman I can't stand
You're the first to ever make me
Fall in love and then not take me
The night I let you hang my wings upon your horns