(no subject)
I am back on AIM for last week or two. I am Ravenz_ladie so if someone want to have the talk with me I will be there to talk yes. It is on all time. It is when I am AIM that I see Charles and I know he do not want to speak to me and I know I tell myself I am to let him go and not think of this man but his name is on buddy list and he is on so I think I will say hi for just moment.I do not think he will say back to me but he do say hi back and we have the talk for much time then. I have surprise and happy face that he talk to me but I am sad woman for I find out last night his friend he love they have all how you say backstab him and he is much upset man. He keep writing fond in big letter and he say he know not how love can be fond in one minute and I can feel anger in his word yes. I do not know what fond mean but it is bad thing for him when someone say it. I try to tell him it will be ok but he is quiet and I know he has the hurt feel much. He tell me he is much lonely man and has not no one but I make him think of our baby and how much she love him and he seem to be with much more light heart yes. We talk of when he get back and what he will do with our baby and I think how sweet this pretty man he can be and how gentle and why do his friend they hurt him with belief of thing he do with woman he hate. Charles tell me he get in more trouble when he is from home than when he is home haha but I do not make light of it for I know he is sad and he do not joke of this. To have the talk with Charles is much happy time and I tell my counsellor I have hope and he tell me I am wrong road and must not talk to Charles no more and I tell him to jump in lake haha Charles tell me he will talk to me more and ask me to give our baby his love. It is this connect thing with our baby which make me know I can not forget him for I try hard but some thing it always come up to change this. Charles some thing he say make me have the hope that maybe one day he and me will be a we yes and it is enough hope to keep this woman with smile face. I know not why his woman doubt him so and set him free or his friend they are mean to him and say the bad thing to give him much pain but I will take this chance they give me and how you say run with it. I know his pain and I know he will not forgive what they do to him his mind for he say it is day to day thing and he is much tired of the have to explain himself over and over he say and his soul he say are crush with much heavy load. I will try to pull load off with little kind word and love. We end last night on good way and he say he will talk to me today if he has time for he work long shift and night way and I do not know of what time it is for me to be on but I will just keep AIM on all time and will hear his wolf call to me when he sign on. haha
Haha They say one woman trash is other woman treasure but this pretty man he has always been treasure to me for I never throw him away and I am always ready to take him from trash when other woman do toss him yes. I am still shock woman that she do this but I can not take time to wonder why but must make effort to make Charles feel love and not worthless feel he has now. I must make my babys daddy happy man for she need him much when he get home.
Haha They say one woman trash is other woman treasure but this pretty man he has always been treasure to me for I never throw him away and I am always ready to take him from trash when other woman do toss him yes. I am still shock woman that she do this but I can not take time to wonder why but must make effort to make Charles feel love and not worthless feel he has now. I must make my babys daddy happy man for she need him much when he get home.