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I talk to my baby today, and she is much excited because her daddy he will be coming home soon. She say she has the talk with him today and she is happy little girl for he is coming home to be with her soon yes. I spend most of day trying not to think of this man but then when my baby call and she talk of him always it is much difficult to not think of him.
It rain today and I sit in sunroom and tell myself it will be ok and I can live without her daddy for I have live without him for seven year now, but it hurt still and I cry and wish I could make him love me but I know he will not do this ever. My counsellor tell me to write of it and so I do now. I want his arm and his love and I want no other woman to be with him. It drive me crazy to know he has the love for other woman and I know this it is wrong to feel for he is not mine now. I need to get interest in other thing. I need to start the life again much without him.
It is still rain and this it even make me sad for I know my babys daddy love the rain for he will walk in it when we were marry couple. He use to laugh at me for I do not want my hair it to get wet and he would make the fun of me and I would laugh and my hair it would get wet and he would pick me up and whirl me in air like he do our baby and yes I need to stop me to think of this but it's there and I cannot make it go away. I feel much without hope and wonder if I will ever be able to get over my babys daddy. Even movie on tv remind me of him when I see good looking long hair man and I find me to compare this man with my babys daddy and they are never as pretty. haha Charles he tell me I am blind woman and need the glasses yes but I know better. I like the eye candy yes and he has much of it.
It rain today and I sit in sunroom and tell myself it will be ok and I can live without her daddy for I have live without him for seven year now, but it hurt still and I cry and wish I could make him love me but I know he will not do this ever. My counsellor tell me to write of it and so I do now. I want his arm and his love and I want no other woman to be with him. It drive me crazy to know he has the love for other woman and I know this it is wrong to feel for he is not mine now. I need to get interest in other thing. I need to start the life again much without him.
It is still rain and this it even make me sad for I know my babys daddy love the rain for he will walk in it when we were marry couple. He use to laugh at me for I do not want my hair it to get wet and he would make the fun of me and I would laugh and my hair it would get wet and he would pick me up and whirl me in air like he do our baby and yes I need to stop me to think of this but it's there and I cannot make it go away. I feel much without hope and wonder if I will ever be able to get over my babys daddy. Even movie on tv remind me of him when I see good looking long hair man and I find me to compare this man with my babys daddy and they are never as pretty. haha Charles he tell me I am blind woman and need the glasses yes but I know better. I like the eye candy yes and he has much of it.