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So I'm sitting in my living room, the last time i'll be doing this for quite sometime, and I must say, it'll be bittersweet. It'll be sweet in the fact that I won't have to see Gavin until Thanksgiving (give or take a weekend) which is pretty freaking sweet. I'll be in the city again, free to come and go as I please, have a bedroom with privacy, not to mention peace and quiet. Surrounded by my friends, theater, and wonderful knowledge.
It'll be bitter however, because I'll miss my mum a lot. We stayed up till 5 am last night laughing at the most random, stupid things, and it was awesome. It was probably some of the most fun I've had with her all summer. I wish I could have spent more time with her, because we passed like ships in the night because of our schedules. I also wish I had seen my Dad more, but it's hard when he's gone all week, and I spend the weekend at Danny's house. This will also be the last summer I live at home, so the last time I'm going to be living here for more than a month at a time, which makes me really happy, but I will miss living with my family.
As much as they piss me off, frustrate me to all ends, I will really miss living with them. It's kind of weird being an adult. I need to do it, and I definately will, but I know I can always come home when I need to, which is a nice feeling. I feel bad for my Mum, cause she never spends any time/energy on herself. She never has, since we were born, and when I'm home, I make sure she's taken care of, but I worry about her when I'm not around, because she puts herself last in every possible way, which is her personality, but I know she gets sad a lot.
I'll miss Zack a lot, too...he's a good boy.
The house is quiet, and I'm the only one awake.
In retrospect, the summer was alright. I mean it had it's great moments, but there were also a lot of shitty moments. But I've lost a lot of weight, gotten off medications, and I feel like my old bony self again. Except I'm not bony, nor in the Nightmare Before Christmas. But I am me again, nonetheless, which is a great feeling.
But yeah, I am really excited to get back to Simmons, I really love it so much, and it's really going to be hard to leave it.
_raven.
It'll be bitter however, because I'll miss my mum a lot. We stayed up till 5 am last night laughing at the most random, stupid things, and it was awesome. It was probably some of the most fun I've had with her all summer. I wish I could have spent more time with her, because we passed like ships in the night because of our schedules. I also wish I had seen my Dad more, but it's hard when he's gone all week, and I spend the weekend at Danny's house. This will also be the last summer I live at home, so the last time I'm going to be living here for more than a month at a time, which makes me really happy, but I will miss living with my family.
As much as they piss me off, frustrate me to all ends, I will really miss living with them. It's kind of weird being an adult. I need to do it, and I definately will, but I know I can always come home when I need to, which is a nice feeling. I feel bad for my Mum, cause she never spends any time/energy on herself. She never has, since we were born, and when I'm home, I make sure she's taken care of, but I worry about her when I'm not around, because she puts herself last in every possible way, which is her personality, but I know she gets sad a lot.
I'll miss Zack a lot, too...he's a good boy.
The house is quiet, and I'm the only one awake.
In retrospect, the summer was alright. I mean it had it's great moments, but there were also a lot of shitty moments. But I've lost a lot of weight, gotten off medications, and I feel like my old bony self again. Except I'm not bony, nor in the Nightmare Before Christmas. But I am me again, nonetheless, which is a great feeling.
But yeah, I am really excited to get back to Simmons, I really love it so much, and it's really going to be hard to leave it.
_raven.