Halloween is HERE!!
HAPPY HALLOWEEN EVERYBODY!!!!! I love Halloween... All the scary movies and shows they put on t.v., all the scary decorations, the CANDY!!! hahah. I bought myself some candy yesterday and they're all in the shapes of toes and fingers and eyes and mouths and ears, it's so cool my mom was getting grossed out by them. Well this weekend sucked... I worked which is in my earlier post from when I was actually stuck there and had no idea what I was doing! Well Rich had spent the night Friday so he got to drive me to work on saturday. It was nice but I hated having to wake him up early, I felt so bad! Anyway when I got home he was supposed to come over but he had to work also which sucked and he didn't wind up getting to my house until about 4. He made me dinner and it was really good. I'm so happy he knows how to cook! hahaha. Then we watched the saw movies because I had never seen them. They were really good not really scary just gorey. But he couldn't spend the night saturday cause he wanted to be able to sleep in on sunday and I had to go to work again!!! It really sucked so much because my parents were away and I wanted to spend the whole weekend with him, but work always screws up my plans. So he left about 12 and I was so paranoid when I had to go to bed. Cause I was completely alone and we watched scary movies and I didn't want to go to bed alone!!! It sucked. Oh and I forgot to set the clocks back so 5:30 rolls around and I was way to tired and decided to give myself an extra half hour and get up at six. Well I was half asleep and hit the hour button by accident so I got up at 6:30 and I was freaking out cause I only had like five minutes to get something to drink before I had to rush around and get ready. Thank god I decided to put the news on and found out it was only 5:30. There's no way in hell I want to be an hour early for work so yeah Thank god for the news!!! hahahahaha. Yeah so work is really getting to me now. It was great in the beginning because I was out of the kitchen but now it's almost just as bad but completely opposite than the kitchen... In the Kitchen I worked every day, in the film room I'm lucky if I get one day in TWO WEEKS!!!! I'm not even on the schedule this week. It's fucking bullshit. How am I supposed to live off a one day pay which last time I got a one day pay it was like 70$. I have bills to pay too you know. Granted there not actual bills I only pay my parents rent and car insurance. But that's two hundred dollars and plus I try to help my mom with the groceries because I eat the food too. How am I going to pay a two hundred dollar bill when I only get 70 bucks!!!!!! Like I said before it's FUCKING BULLSHIT!!!! I've been looking for a new job. I definitely need a full time job but there's no way I'm getting full time in hell! Number 1 they really don't have any full time positions and number 2 I so do not want to fucking work there! I just don't know what I want anymore, and that's just so sad to me because I always knew what I wanted. From the time I was Five I knew what I wanted... but I killed that dream and even if I could go to school for that right now I don't want it any more. Well I pissed myself off enough this morning so I'm going to end it here!