Episodes of creepy-ness

[ravenousvamp]

Ok so first episode of creepy-ness was last Wednesday I think it was Wednesday whatever there were thunderstorms around 1:00am so by 1:30 I decided to get off my computer because you're not supposed to have electronics on during a lightning storm. So I went to bed but first stopped in the bathroom and when I turned the light on I swear I heard music for just a second it was odd but I dismissed it thinking maybe I didn't actually hear anything so I got to bed I turned on my air conditioner and my fan but I didn't turn on my radio because I figured two things on was bad enough during lightning I didn't want to chance my radio too. I laid down and no sooner do I turn out my light I was just consumed by this really weird creepy feeling like I was being watched. I felt frozen in my bed every time the lightning flashed I was almost sure I would see someone in my room because I just couldn't close my eyes and then after a few minutes I started hearing music again. It was totally freaking me out. I jumped up and turned my light on and the music stopped. I must have sat there in the middle of my bed with the light on for like an hour trying to make the creepy feeling fade away. I felt like I was five years old again and afraid of the monsters under the bed or in the closet. I didn't feel safe at all. I heard my dad get up to use the bathroom and tried turning off the light again after I turned my radio on so I didn't hear music that wasn't supposed to be heard and tried to go to sleep again. I finally fell asleep some time after 3:00am. Thursday I went to bed and nothing no weirdo music no creepy feeling everything was fine. Friday and Saturday I slept over Rich's house so of course nothing weird happened but the next episode of creepy-ness was Last night and it was worse. Everything was fine I finished watching the Hell's Kitchen marathon that I had watched all day I felt nice and tired so I went to bed. I skipped going into the bathroom and went straight to my room and this time no sooner did I shut my door that the creepy feeling was back. And it was worse then on Wednesday night. I sat on my bed for two hours debating with myself about turning my light off. I just couldn't bring myself to do it. I never used to be not only afraid of my room but afraid of the dark, never. I always loved the dark, even when I was little it was never the dark that scared me it was always the night light because it cast weird shadows on the wall, if I didn't have to share a room with my sister at the time I would have slept in complete darkness and been fine. Anyway I've been living in this house for almost four years and yeah a few weird things have happened like one night I had gone to bed and I swear I heard my named whispered, but because I had Michael, my dog, with me I felt safe (even though he was a wimp) Because I had always heard that animals can sense that stuff before we can and since he always slept through the weird things that happened I felt safe and fine and maybe that it was just my wild and crazy imagination running away with itself. But now that Michael is no longer with me he died a few months back, I don't feel safe in my room anymore. Because now I truly am alone in my room for the first time in almost eleven years. And it's weird Michael has been gone for like three months now and the creepy-ness just started last Wednesday. I hope it stops soon because I barely slept last night and I am so tired. I hate feeling like this. I am going to be twenty-five at the end of the month and I feel like I'm five years old again and I have to keep telling myself that I am too old to be afraid of the dark, I am too old to want to run into my mom's room and have her save me from the monsters. I am too old for this shit! I am too old to be afraid that there's some weird presence in my room, the only thing I should be afraid of is if an actual flesh and blood person breaks into my room not a ghost or whatever. Out of the whole house I should feel most safe in my own room because It's my room with my stuff but I don't feel safe in there at all, or at least I didn't last night. Maybe I'm just going crazy...

Edit: I have just installed aim again so now I can IM people but I forget who half the people are who I have as buddies. So I may be on later if anyone wants to chat.