Where did you go?
I had a bit of a surreal experience last night.
A friend of mine that I know only through the internet informed me that she was dropping everything. No more facebook, no more twitter, no more live journal, no more dream width. Basically she was going to disappear.
I’ve had this happen before and I think it’s fairly common with friends on the internet. Some times people just disappear. Generally it’s unexpected and that’s what made this surreal. This was the first time that I was given forewarning about a friend planning on disappearing. I was mad, I will admit that. I felt hurt that she would just leave behind everything. I thought our friendship meant more. We talked a long time last night. I don’t know what’s going to happen now. Maybe it was for attention, maybe she really feels that she needs to cut herself off from people. A part of me thinks it’s a gut reaction and she believes that it’s the only option.
It got me thinking though, of all the people I have been fairly close with online who I don’t see anymore. One woman in particular was named Sandra. She was a few years older. She gave me advice while I was in college, especially during my freshman year. We sent things to each other. Then slowly she stopped coming online till one day I never saw her again. I have no idea what happened to her. Maybe she outgrew me. Maybe she just got sick of the internet. Maybe she got hurt. I rather think that she just outgrew me and moved on. I miss her though. I’d like to show her that I made it through college. I’d like to tell her that I’m engaged.
There are so many others. I’ve been on the internet for about a decade now and I’ve met a great number of people. Out of all of them, I believe I have retained 1 friend since when I first began coming online and participating in Fanfiction and such. That one friend is stillbefree. Feel Special!
A friend of mine that I know only through the internet informed me that she was dropping everything. No more facebook, no more twitter, no more live journal, no more dream width. Basically she was going to disappear.
I’ve had this happen before and I think it’s fairly common with friends on the internet. Some times people just disappear. Generally it’s unexpected and that’s what made this surreal. This was the first time that I was given forewarning about a friend planning on disappearing. I was mad, I will admit that. I felt hurt that she would just leave behind everything. I thought our friendship meant more. We talked a long time last night. I don’t know what’s going to happen now. Maybe it was for attention, maybe she really feels that she needs to cut herself off from people. A part of me thinks it’s a gut reaction and she believes that it’s the only option.
It got me thinking though, of all the people I have been fairly close with online who I don’t see anymore. One woman in particular was named Sandra. She was a few years older. She gave me advice while I was in college, especially during my freshman year. We sent things to each other. Then slowly she stopped coming online till one day I never saw her again. I have no idea what happened to her. Maybe she outgrew me. Maybe she just got sick of the internet. Maybe she got hurt. I rather think that she just outgrew me and moved on. I miss her though. I’d like to show her that I made it through college. I’d like to tell her that I’m engaged.
There are so many others. I’ve been on the internet for about a decade now and I’ve met a great number of people. Out of all of them, I believe I have retained 1 friend since when I first began coming online and participating in Fanfiction and such. That one friend is stillbefree. Feel Special!