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I've had little surges of worry and anxiety hit me throghout the day. It feels like all these emotions are physicaly being shoved like a pushpin through my chest. It's definitely more physical than anything, and I can't understand why it's there. I suppose it's just little surges of adrenaline. I used to get those a lot for no reason when I was having attacks. It's built up though, and I've grown frustrated and edgy. I already went running today and I don't feel like taking another shower otherwise I would again. I need some kind of release, but I can't think of what kind. I know I've let my mind go understimulated lately and turn into mush, which really grosses me out, but I can't find the energy to do something about it. A deadly cycle. Maybe this frustration is a product of stasis. Boredom has a tendancy to malform into edginess. Combined with straight up endginess, I feel like I need to punch/break something.Today's just felt strange in general.