Waiting for.. something
I realize I haven't been the best of 'bloggers'. I start out good, with quite a lot of posts, and then they sorta just .. drift off. It's not as if I have anything to say. I do. I just hide from them probably, or can't be bothered with them..
Take for example Facebook. Got a 2 messages from a friend (one telling me something I desperatly wanted to know but didn't want to face) and I still haven't replied. That was almost 2 weeks ago. I want to.. I just don't want to have to explain things I'm still not sure about. Which I know I'll have to do, so I keep procrastinating and shunning Facebook. I will have to face it sooner or later though, and will most certinly spend an hour or so writing back to her.
Several things have happened since last, the most recet being that I dyed my hair a bit darker. I would haved liked a more drastic result though. I feel at the moment that I just need a change. I slip back into the same old routines all the time, and while I am happy with most of them, some are not good for me. As in spending time and regretting decisions about TG.
Other things that have been going on is that I have found a supervisor for my mini-dissertation. Which has made me quite relieved, even though I have no clue how I am going to go about the topic. I should be doing more studying than I do, alot more. Last monday the entire house went out on a 7-legged barcrawl and ended up in Ocean. It was great, we were all dressed as geeks and danced the night away.
My mood at the moment cannot be described as anything cheerful. Just for today maybe, but I need.. something. Be it a date, a reckless fling, a hug or a good circuit-training. I dont' know - as long as it's something. I guess this is the aftermath of not having done any excercise for a while. That due to me being sick.
Speaking of that - went to the doctors friday. Appointment with the doctor about knees/ears etc. Then directly after with the nurse about asthma and to get a free flu shot. Couldn't get a flu shot due to illness, but had to book another appointment for tomorrow morning. Bright and early at 9 am for the doctors (to ask if I should get steroid prevention inhalors) and then to get my free jabs. And of course I see TG when going to make my appointment (and of course pretend I didn't see him, which worked quite well. not that I know if he saw me). I am over him.. but still not. I think I just need another guy to take my mind of him.. a Random Fling perhaps?
One fun thing happening next weekend is the University Open Ultimate Regionals - we're hosting it and I will be hosting a team of guys in my house as well. I have no idea how 9 guys are going to fit in my living room, but they'll have to make due. Very much looking forward to the party on saturday - it will hopefully be a blast.
I am so looking forward to circuit training on tuesday.. I need to get my mind off things, and as long as the cheerleaders keep their distance so I can race around I'll be fine. I hope.
Take for example Facebook. Got a 2 messages from a friend (one telling me something I desperatly wanted to know but didn't want to face) and I still haven't replied. That was almost 2 weeks ago. I want to.. I just don't want to have to explain things I'm still not sure about. Which I know I'll have to do, so I keep procrastinating and shunning Facebook. I will have to face it sooner or later though, and will most certinly spend an hour or so writing back to her.
Several things have happened since last, the most recet being that I dyed my hair a bit darker. I would haved liked a more drastic result though. I feel at the moment that I just need a change. I slip back into the same old routines all the time, and while I am happy with most of them, some are not good for me. As in spending time and regretting decisions about TG.
Other things that have been going on is that I have found a supervisor for my mini-dissertation. Which has made me quite relieved, even though I have no clue how I am going to go about the topic. I should be doing more studying than I do, alot more. Last monday the entire house went out on a 7-legged barcrawl and ended up in Ocean. It was great, we were all dressed as geeks and danced the night away.
My mood at the moment cannot be described as anything cheerful. Just for today maybe, but I need.. something. Be it a date, a reckless fling, a hug or a good circuit-training. I dont' know - as long as it's something. I guess this is the aftermath of not having done any excercise for a while. That due to me being sick.
Speaking of that - went to the doctors friday. Appointment with the doctor about knees/ears etc. Then directly after with the nurse about asthma and to get a free flu shot. Couldn't get a flu shot due to illness, but had to book another appointment for tomorrow morning. Bright and early at 9 am for the doctors (to ask if I should get steroid prevention inhalors) and then to get my free jabs. And of course I see TG when going to make my appointment (and of course pretend I didn't see him, which worked quite well. not that I know if he saw me). I am over him.. but still not. I think I just need another guy to take my mind of him.. a Random Fling perhaps?
One fun thing happening next weekend is the University Open Ultimate Regionals - we're hosting it and I will be hosting a team of guys in my house as well. I have no idea how 9 guys are going to fit in my living room, but they'll have to make due. Very much looking forward to the party on saturday - it will hopefully be a blast.
I am so looking forward to circuit training on tuesday.. I need to get my mind off things, and as long as the cheerleaders keep their distance so I can race around I'll be fine. I hope.